Many nights of passion come to an end

Apart from the two week holiday over Christmas and New Year, CN and I have spent one or two nights a week together almost every week since November last year.

Usually we met in the West End of London. We went to a different restaurant almost every time. We both enjoy good food and wine, and we sampled foods from various countries and cultures. If time allowed we might call into a pub, or go back to my hotel and have a drink in the bar. Then we would spend the night together in my hotel room.

Once inside the room it wouldn't be long before we were both naked. Quite often CN would undress as soon as we entered the room. I think she knew that I found her tall, slim, dark brown body totally irresistible. Sometimes we would shower together (on one occasion we fucked in the shower and she climaxed almost immediately). Sometimes we would share a bath (once I had a hotel room with a large spa bath!). Sometimes we wanted each other so much that we would just strip off and jump onto the bed. Every time we met, the sex was wonderful.

As well as good sex, we had a lot of fun together. CN has a great sense of humour and I loved to see her laughing and smiling. We always felt very comfortable in each others' company.

However, we both knew it would have to stop. I will retire from work this summer and will no longer travel to London. CN knew that I am married and that our relationship could never become permanent. Ideally she wants to meet a single man who can take care of her and her daughters.

But it has come to an end sooner than we expected. I am not going into detail, but a breakdown in communications between us led to a very serious situation that potentially could have wrecked my marriage. I decided that my life had got too complicated and that my relationship with CN had to end.

We still exchange text messages from time to time, but I don't think we will ever meet again. I will remember many happy times with CN and she has told me that she has happy memories as well.

A very hot morning

My African friend CN is thinking about taking over an existing catering business and giving it an African theme. She asked me what I thought and if I would help her with the business plan. Some years ago CN ran a restaurant in Africa and she has the vision of what she wants to create.

We agreed to meet at her home one morning this week as my workload is fairly light at the moment. We spent a few minutes looking through the paperwork and talked about the start up costs. CN was wearing a thin top and very short shorts. Her long black legs looked incredible. Inevitably our minds soon turned to pleasure and the kissing started. CN suggested that we move to her bedroom.

One very refreshing aspect about CN is her directness. There is no ambiguity about what she wants and when she wants it. As soon as we got into her bedroom, she started to undress and reached for the massage oil. Within seconds we were both naked and I was already erect.

CN lay face down on the bed and I massaged her back. She really enjoys firm massage on her shoulders and back. I also massaged her arms and hands, and later moved to her lower back and thighs. At this point she turned over. I gently massaged her breasts, and started teasing her nipples. Gradually I worked my way down her body, applying plenty of oil so that my hands slid easily over her smooth black skin. I massaged her stomach, feet, legs, and inner thighs, but carefully avoided any direct contact with her shaven pussy. I could tell what she wanted by the way she opened her legs and thrust her hips towards my face.

I planted a kiss on her moist pussy lips and used my tongue to explore her folds. I could tell that she was very wet so I placed one, and then two fingers, inside her pussy. I stroked her G spot while licking and sucking around her lips and clitoral area. Some of you will remember that CN does not have a clitoris. It was removed when she was 11 years old, in Africa. As her excitement started rising, she took hold of my cock and guided towards her soaking pussy. I slid inside her with such ease and I could feel her warm flesh opening up for me. We fucked with passion and CN rubbed her clitoral area against me. It wasn't long before she shrieked with climax.

Next, CN decided to massage me. I lay on my back and she applied oil to my skin. I really enjoyed the sensation of her firm hands pressing and moving over my body. When I turned over, she copied my approach and carefully avoided touching my cock. But soon the temptation became too great for both of us. Once again my cock slipped inside her and we fucked with her on top.

When CN said she was tired, she lay next to me and we hugged and kissed for a while. But she knew that I had not yet cum and that our love making was not yet complete. It wasn't long before my mouth was at her lovely pussy once more, making her wetter than ever. My cock slipped inside her. This time the action was fast and furious, and it wasn't long before I could hold back no longer. I shot my hot cum deep inside her.

We took a shower together and got dressed before going out to lunch at a nearby Indian restaurant. A hot conclusion to a very hot morning!

Celebration Text Message

Within hours of Obama's election victory the text messages started. Who are the clever people who think of them?

Black women all over the world are shaving their pubic hairs today in support of Obama's victory. Their message to the world is:

"READ OUR LIPS ...... NO MORE BUSH"!

Another Night with CN

A couple of weeks ago, CN and I met up late one afternoon in the West End of London. She had hinted that she would like some new underwear and since I had missed her birthday I suggested that I would buy the underwear as a delayed birthday present.

We went to a very small and up-market boutique that sells expensive sexy underwear. CN really liked what she saw. She soon disappeared into the changing room, but it wasn't long before she asked me to join her to take a look at her wearing the items. We did this a few times, adding to the interest of the shop assistant. Eventually we settled on a bra and pantie set, which more than made up in price what it lacked in material!

It was just a short walk from the boutique to Covent Garden where we settled into a restaurant. Both CN and I enjoy red wine in large quantities and I'm very glad we were taking the tube and not driving. The meal was very enjoyable and nothing was too much trouble for the restaurant staff. We left the restaurant feeling very mellow.

When we reached the hotel we went straight to the bedroom. CN is an excellent kisser and soon we were naked and on the bed. As we fucked she kept saying "I love it, I love it"!

Eventually we decided to get a drink in the bar before getting into bed for the night. CN was wearing a short skirt with opaque tights, but she felt there was no need to put the tights back on inside the hotel. There was a group of about eight businessmen in the bar, and it was quite amusing to watch their faces as CN and I walked in. I am almost six feet tall and CN is the same height. She has long arms and long legs. I think the sight of a very tall slim African woman, showing a fair amount of black thigh proved irresistible to those men. It made me feel very sexy!

After a couple more drinks we returned to the bedroom. We spent the night together. I don't need to spell out every detail. Suffice to say we didn't get much sleep.....

In anticipation.....

Over the last few weeks I have exchanged many texts with CN. We had hoped to meet about two weeks ago but our meeting had to be delayed. We have arranged to meet next week and spend a night together.

This photo is a taste of what I will be enjoying......

CN and I really enjoy having sex together and we both would prefer unprotected sex. She is very careful about her body and I had concerns as she is from Africa. So we have both had tests for sexual health (STDs and HIV). We got tested separately (at confidential private clinics) and e-mailed our results to each other. I'm pleased to say that we are both totally clean.

We are looking forward to our next night together. I'll keep you posted........

I'm back and ready to blog!

It's about three weeks since I came back from holiday, and I've decided to continue blogging.

I have met CN a couple of times recently just for a drink. We have talked a lot about my marriage and the circumstances that led me to ending our relationship. We both agreed that the sex between us was really good and that we enjoy each others' company. On that basis, we plan to spend an evening or a night together quite soon. Watch this space!

Holiday

I'm going on holiday tomorrow, returning in about 3 weeks......

2nd Birthday

Next week will see the second anniversary of this blog. It's been fun and I have found it a useful way of expressing and understanding my feelings. However, I am seriously considering closing it down.

An Indoor Picnic

About a week after my outing with "A", I arranged to meet up with MS. I mentioned in a recent post that after many dates and much kissing, MS said she wanted us to have sex. She did explain that she was feeling rather nervous. MS is a married woman in her early 50s. She only stays with her husband because of her son, and is rather scared of the prospect of living alone. MS has not had sex for some years and was rather worried that she had "closed up" for ever!

On the day we agreed to meet, MS left work early and went to a local supermarket to buy the items for our picnic including a bottle of sparkling wine. That afternoon there was torrential rain in London. I got soaked returning to my hotel and immediately had a shower. MS met me in the bar of my hotel and she was pretty wet as well. We had a drink in the bar and she asked if she could have a shower in my room.

Once inside my hotel room, I unpacked the shopping and set out the food and drink on the table and desk, while MS went into the bathroom for a shower. A few minutes later she emerged in a towel. We kissed and MS suggested I remove my shirt. We sat on the edge of the bed and spent time kissing. It wasn't long before her towel slipped and revealed her naked breast. The first time it happened, MS pulled the towel back up, but the second time it happened, she just let it fall. After more kissing and touching, I undressed until I was just in my pants. Soon her towel was on the floor and MS was wearing only her knickers.

We moved onto the bed and MS took the initiative. She removed my pants and soon had my cock in her hands, and then in her mouth. It wasn't long before I removed her knickers and we were both totally naked. I explored her body with my mouth, and MS wriggled with pleasure when my fingers and tongue started to explore her pussy. It was very clear that she had definitely not "closed up"! In fact, she was leaking juice and made quite a damp patch on the bed.

We did manage to find time to eat the food and drink the wine during our sexy fun. At one point MS said she would like to try an experiment. She filled her mouth with sparkling wine and then placed my cock in her mouth. I liked the sensation of the cold wine on my hard flesh. I then filled my mouth with sparkling wine, and licked her pussy while allowing some of the wine to leak slowly out of my mouth. MS said it made her pussy tingle and feel very warm.

The combination of food, drink and sexy fun continued for a few hours. Eventually MS said she had to leave as she had a long journey home. She had another quick shower and we both got dressed. We both said how much we enjoyed it. Our subsequent exchange of text messages, while she was travelling home, was very explicit. I'm sure MS and I will meet again when we can.

A short break with "A"

About three weeks ago "A" and I spent some time together. We met one afternoon in central London and took the tube to where I had parked my car. We then drove to a country hotel where I had already booked a large double room. The hotel was really lovely, set in its own grounds surrounded by a high wall with security gates. I unpacked quickly. "A" didn't need to unpack as she only brought a toothbrush and a bottle of massage oil!

We had a couple of drinks and a meal in a nearby country pub. It was a very mild evening and we sat outside in the dark for quite a while before returning to the hotel. "A" made it very clear that while she enjoys being in my company, she did not want sex. I responded by saying that I would never force anything onto her. I get turned on knowing that a woman wants me; I get no pleasure from forcing myself onto anyone.

Once we were back in our hotel room, "A" told me to undress so that she could give me a sensual massage, and she removed all of her clothes except her knickers. It was quite obvious that she does not trim her pubic hair as it sprouted out of the sides of her knickers. "A" has given me sensual massages before, but this time she spent much less time on my back and legs, giving much more attention to my cock and balls. Then she invited me to massage her and gave me tuition on the places to apply more pressure and the amount of oil to use. We watched TV for a while and eventually cuddled up and went to sleep. No kisses and no sex!

In the morning we showered together and I did get to see "A" totally naked. She has the hairiest bush I have ever seen! After checking out of the hotel, we drove to a small town and got some breakfast. We spent the rest of the day driving through the countryside and ended up at a very large out of town retail complex where they sell leading brands at reduced prices. "A" bought some clothes for herself.

Later in the afternoon I drove "A" back to a location that was good for her evening appointment. We both enjoyed the time together but I don't think we will do it again. The chemistry wasn't right.

Current Situations

The situation with J from London has improved somewhat. She makes contact more frequently and appears to be emerging from her period of withdrawal. There is still something big on her mind but she's not yet ready to talk about it. It's possible that J hasn't yet got her head around the problem, and therefore is not ready to talk or consider solutions.

Last week I spent an evening with MS who I have not seen for ages. We went for a meal in a London restaurant and then walked to a pub in the West End. The pub was very crowded and our bodies were touching as we talked. I gave her a few very gentle kisses and the conversation turned to the fact that we have met a number of times but never had sex. MS told me that she has been experimenting with how to trim her pubic hair. After a few more little kisses I was wondering if she could feel my erection. MS suggested we walked to another bar and asked me if I would be able to hide the tent in my trousers! We managed to get seats in the next place, and while I gave her little kisses on her face and behind her ears, she rested her hand at the top of my thigh tantalisingly close to my hard cock. She suggested that the next time we meet we should take some food and drink to my hotel room and have a picnic with sex!

The following day I met briefly with CN and later with "A". CN and I had coffee and talked about the times we spent together. She used a tissue two or three times to wipe tears from her eyes. Clearly she misses the great times that we had. CN told me about the man she has been meeting recently. They meet three or four nights each week and he calls her every night at bed time. However, she hadn't heard from him for nearly a week and he has stopped returning her calls.

Later in the day I had lunch with "A" and talked about the idea of going away together.

I could be having a busy time in London over the next few weeks!

The situation with J

Yesterday I decided to tackle J from London about our rapidly deteriorating relationship. We have always said that we should discuss any problems that arise between us. However, it is difficult for her to talk on the phone at the office of the client where she is currently working. Most days we overcome that difficulty by having conversations via e-mail. During our e-mail exchange yesterday.....

I wrote:
I was reflecting on the fact that two weeks ago today we were having a drink, planning ballooning and talking about doing lots of things together. You asked me when I would next be in London and when was I taking you to see Sex and the City…… Two weeks later and our communications have deteriorated considerably. There’s a barrier between us. It will probably get worse if we let it. Do we want it to be this way?........

J replied:
There’s a lot of personal challenging thoughts I have been reviewing over the last 2 weeks – some deeply thought provoking. As far as I know, nothing in life is permanent – even ‘…this way’…

I replied:
There was a time when I might have found that intriguing. Now I’m just finding it difficult. As you say, nothing is permanent (unless we really want it to be).

J replied:
Hopefully, nothing is as difficult as we first imagine…

When I failed to respond, J phoned me. She told me that there is something important on her mind. I told her that I feel she is pushing me away and that is why I reduced the level of communication between us. J assured me that the problem is not about me, and that she will talk to me about it when she is ready. She added that she will not make any decisions until she has talked to me, but if I force her to talk then she may have to make a decision that will not be in the best interests of either of us. I said I would give her time and that she should always bear in mind that there is nothing she can say that will shock me. I added that I have probably already thought of all the possible scenarios. J told me again that she will talk to me when she is ready but that she is concerned about the long term consequences for our relationship.

I resisted saying that as things stand at the moment, we don't have a long term relationship. I retire from work in just over a year and will probably move to another part of the country. Our relationship will end at that point. J is fully aware of my retirement plans but maybe has other ideas.....

Three interesting women

During the last two weeks communication between J from London and myself has reduced considerably. I have told her that I am certain she is holding something back from me regarding her health, and I've told her that if we are ever to get close then nothing can be hidden. She knows she hasn't told me the truth; I know she hasn't told me the truth; and she knows that I know. We haven't spoken for well over a week. Text messages and e-mails are clinical and all references to feelings and emotions have disappeared. It's interesting to note that only two weeks ago we were talking about doing many things together. J wanted to know when I would next be in London and asked me to take her to the cinema. Now we are hardly communicating.

You will recall that I had to end my relationship with CN because she assumed I was separated from my wife. I didn't contradict her and it was becoming clear that she wanted a full time permanent relationship which I couldn't give. Soon after I ended things I sent her an email explaining my true position and apologising for misleading her and hurting her. At first she was very cross and upset, but after a few days she contacted me saying that she forgave me because I treated her so well, adding that the sex between us was the best she had ever experienced. CN has 3 children (all by different fathers) and is a very sexy lady so I'm sure she has had sex with plenty of men over the years. Recently CN told me that she now has a new man in her life that she liked very much but he is hopeless in bed. She is suggesting that we could meet again just for sexy fun!

Last week I met up again with "A" the lady that provides sensual massages. We met early in the evening and had a small meal in an Italian restaurant near my hotel. After eating, we went to my hotel room and I showed her some photos she was interested in, and then she gave me another sensual massage. I think we were both more relaxed and comfortable with each other than on the previous meeting. "A" was much bolder with the massage. While I was lying on my front, she soon had her hands between my thighs, touching and stroking my balls, and reaching under to grip my rapidly hardening cock. After the massage we sat and talked. "A" asked if I would like to go away with her for a few days. I was quite surprised! I asked if we would share a room and share a bed, and "A" replied that she would expect nothing less than sharing a bed. Today we have talked about where and when to go. I will keep you posted.....

Discoveries

I recently discovered that J from London is 5 years older than she originally told me. She was clearly embarrassed when I very gently informed her of my discovery. I made it very clear that it made no difference to me, but I was intrigued to know why she did it. I suspect she was just having fun when she told the little lie, never expecting that we would become so close.

Then last week J told me that she is having regular blood tests. Normally she is very open and honest with me, but when I asked her about the tests she told me very firmly that she wasn't going to talk about it over the phone. I have never known her be so adamant.

What is going on?

A Brief Meeting with J from London

A few days ago, J and I were working at the same location in central London. We were not in the same meetings but we did agree to meet up after work. It could only be a short session as I had to catch a train and my journey home takes about two hours.

We went to a local coffee shop. We talked about the research I had done into finding out about where we could go to have a flight in a hot air balloon, the times of the flights, the amount of time that the whole experience will take, and the cost. We may well go for an early morning flight (probably 6am take off) during the next few weeks, and take the day off work.

We also talked about an out of town shopping complex that sells top brands at much reduced prices. I had found out that the complex contains a branch of her favourite shoe shop. So we may well take a trip out there.

As we were walking to the tube station, J asked when I will next be in London and would I take her to see "Sex and the City". Of course I agreed, adding that I am ugly enough to cope with the fact that 90% of the audience will be female! Hopefully we will agree a date during the next two weeks. We also talked about trying a restaurant that specialises in food from her continent.

When we parted, we kissed and hugged as usual. We were only together for just over an hour but we both felt our emotional batteries had been recharged by meeting.

A Night with Anna Louise

For some months I have been chatting online and exchanging e-mails with a fellow sex blogger Anna Louise. We live too far apart to meet up, but recently Anna Louise went on holiday to a location which I was just about able to reach. I booked a hotel room to stay the night and we agreed to meet.

We met late one afternoon in a quiet location and we immediately recognised each other from photos that we had exchanged by e-mail. I drove us to my hotel and we went straight to the bedroom. It was soon apparent that there was very strong sexual chemistry between us. We kissed - gently at first and gradually the passion grew. During our online chats we had established that we both enjoy kissing very much, so neither of us rushed to move on. We continued kissing for quite a long time, while holding each other tightly. After a while we took off our shoes and Anna removed my shirt. I really love it when a girl starts to undress me. I got very turned on knowing that Anna wanted to have sex with me.

We took off a few more clothes and moved onto the bed. Still lots more kissing but now our hands started to wander over each others' bodies. Slowly but surely other items of clothes were removed, while all the time we kept kissing. Eventually we were down to our underwear. I know my cock was rampant and I'm quite sure Anna was aware of my level of arousal. Some weeks ago Anna posted a photo of herself in underwear on her blog. I'm sure she will be happy if I show that image here so that you can appreciate what I was looking at!

Removing Anna's bra revealed her very generous breasts which I kissed and licked, and teased her nipples with my fingers and tongue. I decided to remove my pants and Anna seemed pleased with what she found inside, and took my hard cock into her mouth.

I teased her further by not rushing to remove her knickers. I pulled the material to one side to reveal her very wet pussy so that my tongue could explore her folds and move around her clit. Anna's knickers were soon on the floor and we were both totally naked.

I wanted to lick and suck Anna's pussy some more but she said she wanted to feel my cock inside her. What man could resist such an invitation? I really enjoyed fucking her and it was clear to me that Anna was having a lot of pleasure.

After a while I moved so that I could put two fingers inside Anna. My fingers stroked her G-spot while my tongue licked and sucked her clit. Her pussy was literally overflowing with her juice and my saliva. Anna returned the pleasure by sucking my cock, which is something I like to watch. I then lay on my back allowing Anna to mount me and take control. I really enjoyed having Anna on top of me. It gave us both freedom of movement, I could see everything, and Anna was able to change her position and angle of penetration to gain maximum pleasure. I'm quite certain that Anna was getting all the pleasure she wanted!

We decided to get dressed and get something to eat. The hotel bar and restaurant was only a short walk from my room. We had a couple of drinks while studying the menu and then moved into the restaurant. Conversation flowed easily. We talked about our families, our jobs, our sex lives, and our experiences as bloggers. After a few drinks and a meal I suggested we returned to the bedroom. Anna didn't argue!

Once inside the bedroom we started kissing again but now with much passion. Soon Anna was undoing the buttons of my shirt and it wasn't long before she stripped me naked while she was still fully dressed. My "excitement" was obvious! Anna quickly undressed and we gave each other some wonderful oral pleasures. Anna discovered that I like my balls to be caressed from behind. We fucked in various positions and continued to explore each others bodies. It was pure lust!

Eventually we cuddled up and fell asleep.

I always wake very early in the morning, usually with an erection, and the next morning was no exception. Anna Louise must be a light sleeper because when I ran my hand down her back, she woke up and turned to face me. There was no need for foreplay. I was erect and Anna was wet, so we pushed back the covers and Anna rode me once more. It wasn't long before I came. The release of my cum was a fabulous sensation after the many hours of sex the night before.

I shaved while Anna drank a cup of tea, and then we shared the shower. We checked out of the hotel and I drove Anna to a place very near where she was staying.

Due to the distances involved it's highly unlikely that Anna Louise and I will ever meet again. But I will never forget the time that we spent together. Anna is a very sexy lady!!

Having saved this post as a draft, I see that Anna has posted her account of our meeting here.

Posing Naked Again

I recently posed naked again for Jackie Adshead, my friend the female erotic artist.

It was good to meet up again with Jackie and her favourite female model. I hadn't seen them since last year. We were soon trying out ideas for poses (fully dressed at this stage). Having chosen a few likely poses, the female model and I got undressed while Jackie set up the lighting and her artist's equipment.

The pose seemed simple enough. I lay on my back on the floor with the female model above me supporting her weight on her hands, which she placed on my chest.

It wasn't long before we discovered that the pose was much harder to hold than first thought. The female model found it difficult to support much of her weight on her wrists, and while Jackie made every effort to keep the room warm it was inevitable that I would get cold lying on the floor.

After a while Jackie stated that she was not all together happy with the image. There are some lovely shapes and curves in the picture, and I love the use of red and black in the image.

The female model was not able to stay very late, and when she left to go home, Jackie continued working on my part of the image for a while. Eventually we stopped work and I got dressed. I know that Jackie feels that the image is "incomplete" and wants to do more work on it.

Jackie and I then shared a bottle of wine and caught up on events. Jackie's account of the session can be found here.

I'm looking forward to seeing the completed image, and posing for Jackie again soon.

Probably fully reconnected

J from London and I appear to have fully reconnected. I have not told you everything that has happened between us over the last few months for fear of tempting fate. After our big argument in January we did reconnect fairly quickly but we both were very aware of the fragility of our friendship.

We soon resumed daily contact. On Valentine's Day I sent her some orchids in a box with a message that included: "I'm so glad I haven't lost you xxx". As soon as she received the flowers she sent me a text saying: "Good morning dear you. Guess who's my Valentine this year. How could you lose me? You're the finer parts of me! xx". Since then, we made sure we connect every day no matter where we are. Sometimes it is just a text message or two, sometimes it is long telephone conversations, sometimes a "conversation" by e-mail while at work, sometimes a brief meeting.

Then about two weeks ago J mentioned that she was going out for a social evening with some of the people she works with. She wasn't keen on the activity they had chosen, and mentioned that she would love to try Go-Karting! I said I would be delighted to take her karting. It was agreed that I would do some research, find a track near where she lives, and make all the arrangements.

One day last week we both took an afternoon off work. I picked her up from the office of her current client and drove to the karting track. It is one of the best in the UK. The track is twice as long as most tracks, and they have twin engined karts with a maximum speed of 70mph.

It was a lovely warm and sunny afternoon. We arrived in plenty of time so we sat in the car and talked about "us". We had a wonderful time on the karting track competing in two races. J really enjoyed the experience and while it's not the sort of thing we would want to do every week, we did agree that we would do it again.

On the way back we stopped for a meal and continued talking. It was really enjoyable driving around outer London on a sunny evening after most of the traffic had died down. Eventually I dropped her off at her flat. We kissed and hugged, and she looked so happy!

The next day we met briefly in central London. I walked with her from the office to one of her favourite shoe shops on New Bond Street. She asked if I wanted to enter the shop with her, and when I agreed, she gave an enormous smile! She said most men are not interested in going shoe shopping, but now she has her favourite man in her favourite shoe shop!

We have agreed that we will "do something" together at least once a month. The favourite idea that is emerging for our next adventure is a ride in a hot air balloon. I have already told her that she can't wear high heels in a balloon and we are advised to wear Wellington boots in case we land in a muddy field!....

Sensual Massage

You may remember I wrote a post about massages a few months ago. The idea continued to intrigue me so I decided to get some first hand experience. You will appreciate that I put myself through this experience purely in the interests of bloggers the world over!

I came across a lady on the internet called "A" who offers sensual massage, either in her home or in hotel rooms. We exchanged a few e-mails and I mentioned that I have posed naked for Jackie Adshead and that I am comfortable when naked. In her reply "A" said she was pleased that I am comfortable when naked as she does not use a towel to cover parts of the body when giving a sensual massage.

I met "A" one evening near my hotel in London and soon we were in my room. We talked for a few minutes and then she suggested we got started. I undressed and lay face down on a towel she had placed on the bed to protect the sheets from the massage oil. "A" talked to me about the oils she uses and then placed her hands on my shoulders. Slowly but firmly she moved her hands over my back and arms, rubbing in the oil. After a while A moved to my feet. She massaged my feet and legs, paying a lot of attention to the backs of my knees. Gradually her hands moved higher and higher up my thighs, and massaged my buttocks.

Slowly her hands moved between my thighs. She skilfully rubbed my inner thighs and groin area without touching my genitals. At times I could feel her fingers just brush past my balls but I didn't know if that was by accident or design. By this stage my cock was getting hard with anticipation! Then, as if to remove any doubt about her intentions, she touched my balls and massaged them gently.

"A" then suggested that I turn over. She started by massaging my arms and chest, giving a lot of attention to my nipples. Her hands moved to my stomach and she carefully avoided touching my fully erect cock. She moved to my feet and slowly worked her way up my legs and then my thighs. Without any hesitation, she gently massaged my balls and my cock.

I was reminded of a post last year by Jeremy. In Jeremy's case, his masseur said "right, now to finish you off". The lady placed a towel over him and left him in peace. In my case, "A" made sure I experienced a "happy" outcome!

The whole massage took just over an hour. After I got dressed I walked with "A" from the hotel towards the nearest tube station. She suggested we went for a coffee, and we talked for nearly another hour. "A" told me that I can call her anytime to meet for a drink or a meal, with or without another massage.....

The Re-connection continues

A few evenings ago I met with J from London. It was our first meeting since our big argument some weeks back. We were both working in London but in different places, and our plan was to meet directly after work. However, unexpected events meant that J decided to go home after work and meet me later.

J called me about 7pm when I was having a shower in my hotel. We agreed that I would get something to eat and call her later so that we could meet for a drink. Knowing that J often falls asleep during the evening, I was concerned that she would not want to leave her home later. I called her about 8:30pm and got no response. I assumed she was asleep.

About 9:15pm J called me and we arranged to meet at a bar we have used a number of times. When she arrived it was clear to me that she was very tired and had made a big effort to get dressed and make the journey. We talked for an hour or so over drinks. Our conversation was about day-to-day matters and what we had each been doing over recent days. At no time did we talk about "us". We hugged as we parted but I was left with an uneasy feeling.

Later that night we exchanged a few text messages. The next day J phoned me four or five times, so I guess our relationship is gradually getting back to where it was.

An interesting week

Earlier this week, J from London and I arranged to meet. It would have been our first meeting since we argued some weeks ago. However, during the afternoon she sent a text message to say she had gone home early as she wasn't well and that I should call her when I reached my hotel. When I called J she was feeling a little better but wasn't going to come out to meet me. I told her this was only what I expected as she blows me out more often than not. I added that I could have spent the night with CN but chose to meet her instead. (I had previously told her about CN).

J suggested that I should have my evening meal and that we would talk again later. Although we never got to meet we did have a number of telephone conversations. One call lasted well over two hours. I estimate that we must have talked for nearly four hours on the phone that night. We have recovered from our big argument but clearly there is a long way to go to fully restore the relationship we used to have. J says she loves me and I have very strong feelings for her, but I cannot consider a future together without regular meetings.

I mentioned in an earlier post that CN has become very emotionally attached to me. Recently she has been asking when I will take her away for a weekend, or go on holiday together for a week. CN has told me she is looking for a partner not a part-time relationship. Being married, I cannot give her what she wants. CN is a lovely lady but I don't feel strong love for her.

I arranged to meet CN one lunch time this week to bring our relationship to an end. We met at her home. I told her that it wasn't fair on her because I don't feel strong love from my heart. That is an expression she uses often so I knew she would understand exactly what I was saying. I told her she needed to be free to meet a man who can give her what she wants. I added that she is a beautiful woman and a lovely person, and that she will meet a good man. But that man isn't me. She cried. I said I would never forget her.

Later that evening CN sent me a text saying that it had been a hard day but she was ok now. She thanked me for the wonderful times we had together and that we could try to be just friends. We might chat online or exchange e-mails but I don't think we can ever meet again.

Another Long Night with CN

A few days ago I met CN for another long night together. I booked a double room at a high quality traditional country hotel not too far from CN’s home.

I picked her up outside her home about 7:30pm and we drove to the hotel. The hotel is a converted and large country house set in its own extensive grounds. Our room was in an annex reached by a short walk through part of the gardens. The room was large with a walk-in wardrobe area and a very big bathroom with bath and separate shower.

We quickly unpacked and got naked. We were soon kissing and making love. Everything flowed easily. With some people I find that sex gets better each time, and it was certainly the case with CN. We planned to eat and have a few drinks in the hotel to save driving. However, after making love on the bed, having a bath together, and getting dressed, we realised that the hotel restaurant had closed. We drove to a local Greek restaurant where we drank wine, and ate chicken and lamb with potatoes and salad.

We returned to our hotel room where I opened another bottle of wine and we both got naked. CN had brought a number of sexy outfits with her so that I could take photographs. One of the outfits was really sexy. Her black nipples protruded through the string material and it was so short that her pussy was visible. That particular photo shoot soon turned into more love making. The fun continued until 3:30am when we decided it was time to get some sleep.

Barely three hours later we woke up. Kissing and cuddling inevitably led to yet more sex. Just before 8am we decided that we needed to shower and dress for breakfast. Being a traditional country hotel, there was a wide choice of cold meats, fruit, and cereals, as well as cooked English breakfast. It was a nice combination of self service and waitress table service. The dining room overlooked part of the garden and the sun was shining. It was a very romantic and gentle way to start the day.

Check out time was 11am so on return to the room we undressed again and got back into bed for yet more sex. I find CN’s dark brown body very attractive and irresistible. CN says she can’t get enough of me and loves every minute of sex between us. I dropped her back to her home about 11:30am. During that long night I estimate we had about 9 hours of sex. Almost every muscle in my body aches today!

Reflecting on CN

Since our meeting last week, CN has made it clear that she wants us to meet more frequently than I can manage, and she has raised the question of what will happen when I stop work in about 18 months time! It would appear that she has become very emotionally attached.

CN told me that she is looking for a full time partner. I might have considered making such a commitment to J from London, but I don't feel that strongly about CN (although I do like her very much).

I have arranged to spend another night with CN in about two weeks, but I am wondering if it is such a good idea. I don't want to hurt her.

A Long Night with CN

I met CN last week and, as predicted, it turned into a very sexy session. CN is a very attractive, tall and slim African single mother of three, in her early 40s. Follow this link to my previous post.
CN asked me to pick her up outside her home about 4pm and take her straight to my hotel room which only took a few minutes by car. Once inside my room I made us coffee and she unpacked her overnight bag. Knowing I wanted to take more photographs of her, CN had brought a number of outfits which she hung up in the wardrobe. We talked as we drank our coffees and sat on the bed. Soon we were kissing.

Knowing that we had all night, neither of us was in a hurry. We both enjoy kissing very much and the prolonged kissing got us both aroused. Slowly but surely, our clothes came off until we were just in our underwear. During our previous meeting we had talked about massaging each other, and this time CN had brought a small bottle of massage oil. She laid face down on the bed and I removed her bra before massaging her back with the oil. CN is from Africa and her dark brown skin looked wonderful when covered in the oil. As well as her back, I massaged her arms and her legs. My fingers did slip inside her panties to massage her buttocks but I resisted touching her pussy at this stage. Then she turned over and I applied the oil to her naked breasts. Her black nipples were already erect.

Then CN told me to lie on my front while she massaged by back. She seemed to sense where my back was tense and rubbed very hard on those spots. The sensation was wonderful and it was only the sexual arousal that stopped me from falling asleep. When I turned over she massaged my feet, legs and chest, but avoided my genital area even though my arousal was clearly visible through my pants.

It wasn’t long before we were both naked. We held each other tightly, our arms and legs entwined around each other, while we resumed kissing – now more passionately than before. Inevitably our hands started exploring. I caressed her breasts while kissing and sucking her nipples. Her fingers stroked my head and body.

Gradually, my mouth moved down CN’s body. She has absolutely no body hair and soon I was kissing her pubic mound. She parted her legs and I used my fingers to gently explore her pussy. I could see that her skin was just flat where her clit should have been. I just carried on touching and kissing her pussy without giving it a great deal of thought. Later, CN told me that she had been circumcised at the age of 11. It was common practice in her country at that time (just over 30 years ago). I can understand why this practice is often referred to as female genital mutilation. (Type I or type II in her case). I expressed my concern that she was missing out on considerable pleasure but CN said she had never known it any other way.

We continued kissing and touching each other and soon I was inside her. CN is the first black woman I have had sex with. I always enjoy seeing my cock slipping inside a woman, but the sight of my white skin slipping inside her black body was amazing. As we fucked, CN showed all the signs of reaching orgasm and assured me that she had reached a climax.

Now it was early evening and we took a shower together. I took some photos of CN. She looked simply stunning in a white towel, and I took more photos of her I the various outfits she had brought with her. CN wore no underwear while I took the photos. I promised not to show anything private in the photos, but she obviously enjoyed teasing me by occasionally lifting her skirt or opening her legs.

At about 8:30pm we were both hungry so we got dressed and drove to a local pub that serves food late in the evening. We sat by an open fire and shared a bottle of wine while eating. Knowing that CN enjoys drinking wine I had bought a bottle earlier in the day which I had left at the hotel.

When we returned to the hotel room I opened the other bottle of wine, and we were soon naked again and in bed. We drank, talked, laughed, kissed, touched and fucked again. At one stage CN asked if she could feed me. Knowing there was no food in the room I didn’t quite understand but I happily agreed. Without me noticing, she must have filled her mouth with wine. She lay on me and as we kissed, she slowly allowed the wine to leave her mouth and enter mine. I swallowed as we kissed. It was a highly sensual experience. It was about 2am when we decided to turn out the lights and get some sleep.

We woke about 6:30am and the kissing started immediately. My mouth moved over her whole body and eventually I started licking her pussy. I wanted to give her pleasure. My tongue dipped in and out of her, and I licked and gently sucked along her inner lips. When I started licking at the place where her clit should have been, CN gripped my head with her thighs and hands making it very clear that she wanted more. I continued licking and gradually I sensed her body moving while she moaned with pleasure. I continued licking until she reached her climax. It seems that CN has sufficient clitoral nerve endings under her skin for her to reach orgasm. She had also left a large damp patch on the bed sheet! It wasn’t long before CN was on top of me and I was inside her again. Her dark brown beautiful skin felt incredibly warm and she joked that if my cock was longer I would feel the fire inside her. The sexy fun continued for a while further. We had another shower together and got dressed just in time to get breakfast before they stopped serving at 9:30am.

After a leisurely breakfast we packed our bags and I drove CN back to her home. I left her about 11am. We both said how much we had enjoyed those 19 hours together. I am sure we will meet again soon.

A Week Away

I am back at work today after a week away with my wife. The weather was sunny and I return feeling very relaxed.

During the week I exchanged a number of text messages with CN. We are meeting again later this week and if the content of the text messages are any guide, it promises to be a very sexy session!

Despite the huge argument with J from London, she sent me a text message on the morning of Valentine's Day. She said "Good morning dear you. Guess who's my valentine this year? xx".

Unpredictable Dating

I had two dates this week. They turned out to be quite different from what I might have predicted.

On Tuesday evening I met CN in north London. We had only chatted for a few days on the internet and decided to meet. CN is an attractive single mother from Africa who has been living in Europe, and now in England for just less than 3 years. We agreed a place to meet and she suggested that we went to local restaurant where she knew we would be able to talk. We had previously established a mutual interest in good food and wine.

During the meal it was quite clear that the chemistry between us was working well. We were soon laughing and touching hands. At the end of the meal I moved to sit next to her. We continued talking while drinking the remainder of the wine, and my hand was soon resting on her thigh. Quite often she would entangle her fingers in mine, on her leg.

At the end of the meal we went to my hotel room where we had more wine. I took some photographs of her which we processed on my laptop computer. CN mentioned that she gets backache and she released the top of her skirt so that I could massage her lower back, and she seemed very pleased when I also placed my hand on her exposed stomach. We got closer and closer, and soon we were kissing. She held me so tightly that I nearly lost my balance at one point! CN made it clear that we were not going to have sex that night, but that she did want to meet me again very soon. We have already set a date to meet again in about two weeks.

On Wednesday evening I had a second date with a lady I first met just before Christmas. Our first meeting was in a country pub where we had a slow lunch. As we left the pub and walked to the car park, she took my hand and made it quite clear that she wanted to be kissed. Of course I obliged!

But on Wednesday she seemed a little distant. We had a drink at the bar before moving into the restaurant. Conversation flowed easily. But at the end of the evening, she refused to let me kiss her. I doubt that we will meet again.

It just shows that it never pays to make any assumptions about the outcome of a date. It's all too unpredictable!

Massages

For many years I have known a lady that provides massage services. There is nothing seedy about this. She has recognised qualifications and is very professional. Although we know each other we meet very rarely.

About two years ago I noticed she was offering free sample sessions of Indian Head massage and shoulder massage (fully clothed). Thinking there was nothing to lose, I took her up on the offer. I found the session very relaxing and I paid her for additional sessions about every two weeks.

Recently I came across an article about Chakra Balancing. This was interesting as I had recently had a long online conversation with someone about the importance of energy in relationships. I decided to search the internet for more information.

While browsing the internet on this subject I came across a website that gives a huge amount of information. The article talks about Tantric massage and describes a procedure. At the end of the article it refers to Lingam (penis) massage and Yoni (vagina) massage. Some beautiful yoni images can be found here.

Following some more links I reached a page about Jahnet Delight. She says:

"I have worked in the sensosexual industry for many years and have developed a way of teaching sexuality and lovemaking techniques in a very erotic and special way using ancient and modern methods. We have a teacher for just about everything, yet no one gives any lovers training and like driving where you need to be in the car and it needs to be turned on.... with sex you need to be in the bed and you need to be turned on!"

Having read these items I just wonder how genuine is all this. So, I ask the readers of this blog two questions:

• Have you any personal experience of massages of this nature?
• Do you think such massages are genuine therapies or is it just a cover for sexual services?

Please add your comments.

Slowly Re-connecting

After a week without speaking and only a few text exchanges, I decided this morning to telephone J from London. We were able to talk for only a few minutes. I made it clear that I wanted to ask how she is, explain a few things, and not argue with her.

J told me that she feels hurt and deeply sad about what happened between us last week. She hasn't been out socially. All she does is work. She chose to spend all last weekend working. Her family have commented on how unhappy she is. J asked if I am still angry with her.

She added that I am the first person she has met in her whole life that offers her everything she could ever want in a man.

I said that the events of last week hurt me very much, and I know that sooner or later something similar will happen again and the pain will be unbearable.

But I am pleased that we are slowly re-connecting.

Things will never be the same again

Earlier this week J from London and I had a huge row. It involved a number of matters which all became connected. I forced the issue and she responded in ways which I found unacceptable. I'm not going into detail as it is inevitable I will give you only my side of the story, and I am prepared to admit that I may have made a mistake. Also, I wish her no harm. One of the things that J did upset me very much. I told her that I would always love her and never forget her, but it was clear that we do not have a long term future. I didn't say that through anger. The situation gave me a glimpse of a possible future and I didn't like what I saw. We both said and received words that hurt, probably because we know each other's vulnerabilities as well as best features. We are both strong-willed, passionate and proud people, so the exchange became very heated.

For about two days there was a frosty silence between us. But last night I sent her a "truce" text. I said that things will never be the same again, but that I would like us to be friends and reconnect at some level. A few hours later, J replied saying that our friendship has never been in doubt.

I'm so sad that this has happened, and I would have been devastated if our friendship had been destroyed. But I feel this episode has showed that while we may still have strong feelings for each other, it would never have worked in the longer term. We are both a little wiser as a result.

Personality Horoscope

In my previous post I mentioned that an internet friend had found a website that will produce a horoscope based on date, time and place of birth. Mine is very accurate. It is reproduced below. The green text shows the aspects that are true, and the red text shows the aspects that are untrue. I have never believed in horoscopes but this is quite remarkable.

Birth chart interpretation - Generated by Starbud 2.0b

Sun 08° 52' Capricorn

Moon 11° 27' Capricorn

Mercury 19° 09' Capricorn

Venus 12° 51' Sagittarius

Mars 25° 60' Capricorn

Jupiter 10° 04' Capricorn

Saturn 06° 03' Virgo

Uranus 28° 05' Gemini

Neptune 15° 06' Libra

Pluto 16° 09' Leo

Ascendant 23° 49' Gemini

Midheaven 18° 10' Aquarius

General personality

Born under the sign of Capricorn, you are realistic in your goals and objectives. You know how to mobilize your skills to achieve the greatest results with the least amount of effort. You are sure-footed and negotiate every obstacle with care, but with a lively step. On the whole you have very good powers of concentration, and are very loyal to people that are close to you. You have a considerable sense of pride, and your inherent ambition will encourage you to aspire to move up the social scale. You like to impress people! Sometimes a negative, hopeless attitude can make its presence felt, and and you need the support of others to overcome this tendency. You need to become more detached and learn to let go when matters are out of your hands.
Life is never the least bit dull when Gemini is in the rising position because this sign produces a personality that is so witty and clever. Unfortunately, the nature is also anxious, high-strung and diffusive. With this lively sign on the rise, you need constant mental stimulation. This is because you cannot stand the thought of being bored, not even for a minute. You want to keep yourself surrounded with people, activities, and exciting situations. You are happiest when you are very busy and fully engaged in a variety of activities. Gemini is a mental or air sign, and you are by nature very active mentally. You identify with ideas and consider yourself essentially a mental person. You are friendly and adaptable, but at times you can be temperamental and a little indecisive. Although you appear confident, inner assurance is not a natural trait. Your disposition is good when you can manage to stay calm and serene. You are a wonderful conversationalist, and many natives of this sign become writers, reporters or active in some phase of communication. Mercury is the ruling planet of your horoscope since Mercury is the planetary ruler of Gemini. Like the metallic chemical mercury, you are slippery and quick, extremely hard to pin down. Gemini is clever. You can outtalk, outthink and outsmart most people you meet. Physically, you are agile and well coordinated. Nervous activity keeps you slender. Your enthusiasm for change is a trait that makes you perpetually young and progressive of mind, even as you grow older. The symbol for Gemini is the twins, and this symbol depicts a duality in your nature. There is a tendency to be somewhat fickle. You can handle more than one job at a time. You tend to dart from one topic to another, from one task to the next, in and out of relationships. You are a collector of trivia and random information. With a Gemini Ascendant, you may indeed be a walking encyclopedia.
Emotionally you are reserved and cautious. This might lead to loneliness at times, since you have some difficulty in projecting warmth and tenderness. You are serious and more concerned with achieving goals and objectives than many others, and you want to be recognized as a capable and independent individual. This is not a bad trait, but try not to look down your nose at other people's suggestions. You are instinctively apprehensive of new ideas, and have a tendency to grumble about minor things that goes unexpectedly wrong. One of your major problems might be lack of self-confidence. Try to look at life with optimism.
Your drive and physical energy is always carefully managed, and your actions well controlled. You know how to conserve your resources, and cope better than most people with difficult conditions. Your temperament is usually patient, although you are very determined to rise to the top. Demanding exercise can be important to your physical well-being.
A conjunction between the Sun and Moon suggests a joining of your emotional urges and your natural drive instincts. The temperament becomes more unilateral, unaffected by the wants and desires of others. You are satisfied with yourself and the goals you hope to realize. You won't adapt easily to changes in your life, unless you sense these changes are in your best interest. You stay clear of the business of others and expect the same from them. You are highly motivated to achieve your agenda, focusing well on objectives, and normally gaining successful results. Even if you don't succeed in the eyes of others, you are self-satisfied with your accomplishments.
A conjunction of the Sun and Jupiter shows that you rarely do anything in moderation. You have an undying faith in yourself and believe that you can do anything to which you set your mind. Your enthusiasm and confidence level runs high, and sometimes you promise more than you can deliver. Even when major setbacks occur, you hang in there. You're never one to let anything get you down or keep you from charging off on another venture. You have confidence that affairs will eventually work out. Character is all important to you. An extremely high sense of justice and concern for others is apparent in your makeup, even if this doesn't show up in other parts of your chart.
A positive aspect formed between the Sun and Saturn makes it easy for you to accept and handle responsibility. Difficult times in your life result in minimal struggle. You inherently know how to react to problems and take advantage of counteracting opportunities. You may have ambitions, but these are not very strong. Most of the time you attain success by doing what is right, when the time is right. Somehow you bring a sense of stability to every situation. Life is not always a basket of roses, and sometimes you get depressed and deflated. Yet you can always get reorganized and back on the right track.
The conjunction of the Moon and Jupiter shows a deep sensitivity to your environment, which you truly want to understand as fully as possible. The aspect confers sympathy and generosity. Often individuals having this combination find jobs working with the underprivileged, in rehabilitation programs, or a similar type of occupation. Your honest concern for others brings you the trust and cooperation of most of those with whom you come in contact. You are a giving person and you find success because of this. Beware of over-extending your physical energies.

Mentality & communication

You have a mind that thrives on problems, and the ability to calculate all situations in a very clever and careful way. It is also possible that you have a flair for numbers. Being practical and efficient, much of your thought will be given to progress and the attainment of objectives. Look out for a tendency to underestimate your own and others' achievements, though. You don't like to be pushed to render decisions until you are ready because you want to avoid making mistakes. Your serious way of thinking can make you appear a little dry and boring. Taking yourself too seriously can also cause problems for you now and then.

Love, marriage & social relations

You have a lively way of expressing love, although maybe somewhat boisterous. You need a partner with an intellectual level matching yours, and you won't tolerate boredom in a relationship. You are drawn to people who are eager to grow in character and who demonstrate by their actions that life is meaningful to them. Try to make sure that your partner does not suffer because of your restlessness and need for constant renewal. On the social level you have a light and breezy manner, and should find it easy to cultivate warm, friendly associations because of your compromising nature.
A positive aspect formed between Venus and Neptune denotes a highly romantic nature. Artistic talent is very often present, but the will to express this talent may be slow to appear. The ability to handle practical affairs must depend on other factors in the chart. You are apt to have unusual romances or meet your partner under such strange circumstances that you may feel that it may even have been predestined. You are kind and sympathetic toward those in need, but your way of giving help may be impractical. You're too tolerant of people, but you don't think so. You are an idealist likely to have deep spiritual beliefs.
A positive aspect formed between Venus and Pluto shows an intense romance nature. You are one of those people who very well may fall in love at first sight. You are a romantic, but in a positive and well directed way. You are not one to scatter or waste your affections. You are apt to possess extremely high moral and spiritual standards. Your basic integrity is solidly founded and unshakable.

Career & ambition

The Aquarius influence in the tenth house denotes original and inventive approach to the career and life work. Uranus, the ruler of Aquarius, is the planet of change, freedom, humanity, and rebellion. You may have new and ingenious ideas to present to the public. You are a team player and function well as a part of the team. Your goals are likely to be stated in advance, and your aim will be accomplishments producing publicly useful results. The tenth house Aquarius personality is inclined to a public life. You may be involved in many humanitarian ventures if you are in touch with that part of your nature. Yet, you are likely to feel a real sense of reluctance to the "glare and scare" connected with public recognition. There is a natural reluctance in your personality to risk-taking in the career. This must be overcome to achieve true success and measure up to your potential. You must be willing to take chances. No matter what career you finally choose, your special inventive quality will be stamped on the end product.

Other traits

You have considerable ambition, and your need for challenge is strong. This will most probably be directed towards the career or improvement in lifestyle. You know how to be methodical, and your ability to calculate every move will be an asset, enabling you to achieve your objectives. You also know your own abilities and limitations, so you never lose control of your affairs. Your outlook is somewhat serious, but an off-beat sense of humour helps to soften your sometimes pessimistic views.
Most likely you have a serious attitude towards life, and a tendency to worry; there is also the possibility that you are too pessimistic. But you are extremely practical, and will take a clinical approach to the shaping of your life and ambitions. It may well be that you always underestimate yourself, and self-confidence is not your strongest point; it should be slowly and carefully developed. You have plenty of common sense, but can be a little too conservative now and then.

Text © Michael McClain and Kai Nicolai Priddy 2005

http://abacusastrology.co.uk/

A New Year

I know it's been ages since I last posted, but it is very easy to get out of the habit. I must try to do better!!

J from London returned from her trip earlier this month. We did manage to keep in contact most of the time she was away despite the inadequacies of the telephone network in that country. We have both been very busy with work and have only managed to meet once since her return.

I've also taken a major decision and set my retirement date. It is still 18 months away but there are particular reasons why I have to make the decision that far ahead. Making the decision has been very liberating. It has changed my attitude to work. I speak my mind and no longer put up with shit from other people. Let's face it - what's the worst they can do to me? :-)

Quite by coincidence, a good internet friend of mine told me about a web site that does a horoscope of your personality based on date, time and place of birth. I have never believed in this stuff, but the result is remarkably accurate. I may well publish the results in my next post and highlight the aspects that are accurate and not so accurate. Just out of curiosity, I obtained the results for J, and also did a compatibility check. Again, the results in both cases were remarkably accurate.

Actions or Words?

As a general rule, women think about how they feel, but men think about what they do. Most of us subscribe to the expression "Actions speak louder than words", but I suspect it was a man that first said it. I had an experience this week that shows the danger of taking that expression at face value.

In my previous post I said that J from London and I were going on the same training course one day this week. I don't think I mentioned that this coming weekend she is going back to her country of origin, returning at the start of January. It is her first visit for about 10 years and she is really looking forward to it. I knew that the training course would probably be our last meeting before she goes away.

Over the weekend I had developed a cough and cold, and it was clear that J had the same thing. However, she seemed to be a lot worse than me. We weren't able to talk much during the course as it consisted of practical team work. After the course we went to the nearest branch of Starbucks and stayed there for a couple of hours. I showed her some of the photographs I took during our day out, and J told me that our day out will always count as one of the most special days in her life. Once again we talked about the possibility of being together in the future.

We left Starbucks and walked to the nearest tube station. We caught the same train and stood together as the train was quite crowded. As we approached her stop she looked at me and said "You are not going to kiss me". I responded by kissing her forehead and she just walked away from me without our usual hugs. Knowing that this would be our last moments together for a few weeks, I was very upset. All the lovely words we had said and sent by text over the previous days just seemed to evaporate in her actions in those few moments.

The next day I raised the incident with J and told her how much it had upset me. That her action had brought back all the uncertainties that had led me to abandon any idea of us getting together. J was totally horrified! She explained that the reason she had told me not to kiss her was that under no circumstances did she want me to catch her cold. Also, she was feeling very ill and tired, and simply wanted to get home. She had not realised that we wouldn't be meeting again before she goes away. Forward thinking has never been J's strong point - she often says that I provide the brains in our partnership. She apologised for her lack of thought and insisted that her behaviour was no reflection on me.

Sometimes words do speak louder than actions!

Progress with J from London

I spent quite a bit of time with J from London last week. Last Thursday we both agreed to take a day off work and have a day out together. We talked on the phone the previous night for over two hours, in order to agree the arrangements for the following day, and inevitably we talked about how we felt about each other.

On Thursday we met mid morning and went to a large park area in London. It was a lovely cold sunny winter day. We walked, talked and laughed. After a couple of hours we went to a small restaurant for lunch. During lunch J asked me how I felt about the decision I took a few months ago to stop actively planning a future together (because at that time I wasn't convinced it was what she really wanted. A fuller account can be found here). I told her that I still love her deeply and that I would really like us to have a future together. J intimated that she felt the same way. After lunch we had a walk around the local market, and when it got cold and dark. we made our separate ways home. We talked at length again on the phone that night.

The next day (Friday) J and I attended a conference. We agreed to meet at a railway station and catch the same train into London so that we could arrive early enough to go for a coffee before the conference. With about 250 conference participants, it was difficult for us to spend a lot of time together. However, we did manage to talk privately at the end of the day. J asked me about the state of my marriage. I told her that while things had improved slightly at the time I told my wife I was not leaving her (see this post), we seem to be drifting apart again. J repeated what she has said many times previously that she does not want to do or say anything to damage my marriage. However, J did admit that if my marriage is failing then she wants the same as me, as long as I don't walk away from my marriage just because of her. That night J sent me a text message saying that I am very special to her.

J and I exchanged many text messages over the weekend. In one text, J said that I should always remember how much love she has for me. In another text, I told J how big my love is for her, and she simply replied "humongous"!

We will be together for a training course one day this week.......

One year....

Last Friday it was exactly one year to the day since I first met J from London. We agreed to meet in central London late in the afternoon to celebrate. We went to a quiet bar for a drink and just to be in each other's company. I had bought her a card, but J wouldn't accept it as she had not had a chance to buy one for me, and said we can exchange cards next time we meet. We sat in the bar for about three hours.

During the conversation J asked me what had been the highlights and the low points of our relationship during the last 12 months. That led us to talking about where we have been, what we have said, and how we feel about each other. J told me that she won't let any other man into her life at the moment. She also said how much she values my text messages and telephone calls. One of the highlights is that we have maintained contact almost every single day, and we never run out of conversation. I explained that while I have stopped actively planning for us to have a future together, I love her lots and that it is still possible that we may get together at some point in our lives.

When we left the bar I walked with her to the nearest tube station. We hugged and said goodbye. J told me not to look at her. She has never said that before and I wondered why. Then I noticed just the first sign of a tear forming in one of her eyes.....

Around a night with R

Two weeks ago I had arranged with R to spend a night at her apartment in West London. Earlier that week I was talking with J on the phone and I told her about my plans. I often say to her that when I am away from home she can text or call me any time of day or night, but she always says she doesn't want to disturb me at night.

On the evening concerned, I travelled to R's apartment. I had a quick shower at her place and changed, and we went out for a meal and a few drinks. When we got back to her apartment we were soon in bed and having sex. During the night I was woken at just after 3am by a text message from J!

The following morning R was very tired. She stayed in bed while I started to get ready for work. I was partly dressed after taking a shower when she called me, pulled back the bed covers and invited me back in to say "goodbye". Needless to say I was two hours late getting to work that day!

The following day I happened to be working in the same office where J was attending a course. We met up late in the afternoon. We only had a few minutes together and we walked to the nearest tube station. After we parted, we exchanged some lovely text messages. Clearly there is still something very strong and extraordinary between us.

J's Reaction

I was away on holiday last week, but J and I stayed in contact by text. We always try to make contact at the start and end of each day, even if we are too busy to text much during the day. J told me that she holds her phone inside the bed at night in order to send "goodnight" and "good morning" messages to me. I also exchanged a few texts with R from London. Although she speaks good English she does find it difficult to write text messages.

Today J and I were at a conference and I gave her a lift home. We haven't seen each other for a few weeks so we had quite a lot of catching up to do. Eventually the conversation worked around to who I had met on two nights in London a couple of weeks ago. I told J about R and that we had enjoyed sex during our second meeting. Based on things J has told me in the past, I knew she would not be upset. How could she be? I told her that I am spending this Thursday night with R, probably at her flat in West London.

I have always been totally open and honest with J about my marriage, other women, how I feel about her, and the reasons why I am not convinced she wants to be with me longer term. I know J really values my honesty and she tells me that she talks more to me than anyone else in her life (apart from her mother).

Later this evening I sent J a text saying how much I enjoyed being with her today, and asking her to understand that my fun with R does not change the way I feel about her. She immediately phoned me to say that it was a lovely message. I told J that I want to have a "serious" conversation with her. She thought she had done something to upset me, but I assured her there was nothing wrong. J offered to meet me for lunch on Friday but I have left that open at the moment.

I spoke to R on the phone this evening. She confirmed our date for Thursday and offered that I can stay the night with her.

My Week in London

I've had an interesting week! In my previous post I mentioned that I had 3 dinner dates lined up. The date on Monday was with a new lady - R from West London. The date for Tuesday was MS who I last met back in March - see this post. The date for Wednesday was actually outside London with another new lady - JB from Warwickshire.

The week did not go exactly as planned, but was still very good.

Monday evening I met R from West London. I had seen her photo and I knew she was attractive, but when I met her she was simply stunning - a very well dressed and attractive foreign lady. We hugged and kissed and walked to a nearby restaurant. The conversation flowed easily as did the wine. After the meal I suggested we could have a drink in the bar of my hotel which was only a short walk away. We held hands as we walked and we seemed to be getting along really well.

We sat in the hotel bar with our drinks. R sat near to me but at a slight angle so that our knees were touching. It wasn't long before my hand was resting on her knee, and my fingers started to stroke her inner thigh just above the knee. I told R about my experiences of posing naked for Jackie Adshead (the erotic artist) and quite soon she agreed to come to my hotel room to see the images on my laptop computer.

In my room we had more to drink from the minibar and I turned on my laptop. We sat on the end of the bed talking about each of the erotic images. R seemed to be particularly interested in the images of me alone and naked, but maybe that was just wishful thinking on my part!

I made a few attempts to kiss R but each time she said no, although I suspected she was just taking things at her own pace. After a while R said it was time for her to go home and would I walk her to her car. As we stood up, I touched her face and we started kissing. I could feel her responding. Her arms moved around me and our kisses became more passionate. Our bodies were touching, however, it was clear that nothing else was going to happen that night. As we left my room I asked if she would like to meet again the following evening. She agreed and said that she would like to show me her flat which is next to the river Thames in West London.

The following morning I contacted MS and explained that we would not be able to meet. MS was fine about it and hoped that we can meet again soon.

Tuesday evening I travelled to R's flat. She met me at the street entrance and took me to a very smart restaurant just a few yards from her flat. We had a lovely meal with wine, and once again the conversation flowed easily. I had brought a bottle of wine which she put in her bag and said we could open it when we got back to her place.

We returned to R's flat after the meal. I could see why she is very proud of where she lives. It is a very modern development next to the Thames, with wonderful views of the river from her windows. We sat on a settee and I opened the wine. We talked and she showed me a book of erotic images, some of which were highly explicit. You can guess the content of our conversation. Soon we were kissing and my hand was stroking her back. She asked me to stroke her back and to use my fingernails to gently scratch her back. I slipped my hand inside her top and as I touched her back she closed her eyes.

After a few minutes R asked me if she could remove her top so that I could touch and massage her back. I did as she asked, and it wasn't long before I removed her bra. After more kissing and touching, R suggested we move to her bedroom so that we could massage each other.

She went to the bathroom and I waited patiently in her bedroom. A few minutes later she came back to the bedroom wearing only a very short nightdress. I removed most of my clothes and joined her in bed wearing only my underpants. She laid on her front and asked me to massage her back. Soon her tiny nightdress was only covering her ass. I turned her over and kissed her lips and worked my mouth around her lovely body. Her nipples were highly aroused (and so was I). Very slowly I moved my mouth towards her pussy which was clearly very moist. I slipped a finger inside her while my tongue explored her lips and clit. She held my head and moved her body, quite clearly directing me to the right places. I continued to lick, kiss and sometimes suck, and she was obviously enjoying the experience. Later she told me that she had cum a few times.

R then took control of me. She removed my underpants and took my cock into her mouth. After a while, she asked me to lie on my back. She kissed the length of my body, gradually reaching my cock again which she held in her hand while licking and sucking. Then she sat up and thrust my cock deep inside her. She rode me very hard and long. Sometimes she sat up. Sometimes she lay on me so that we could kiss. The fucking lasted for some time. Later we changed positions and I fucked her doggy style.

Realising that I had not yet cum, R decided to focus on my pleasure. She lay back on the bed and got me to sit across her so that my cock rested on her face. She took me into her mouth and gently used her teeth against me. Soon I was at the point of no return and shot my cum into her mouth. She smiled and said I tasted sweet - the sweet we didn't eat at the restaurant!

We continued to kiss, holding each other and touching. After a while R asked me if I ever sleep! She was very tired. We slept for a short while and she said I was welcome to stay the night. However, after a short sleep I decided that it would be better if I returned to my hotel room as I would not have enough time in the morning to go to my hotel, change and reach the office on time. R called a local taxi firm and I travelled back to my hotel in the early hours of Wednesday morning.

The following morning I received a text from JB. She was most apologetic and said that she would be unable to meet me that evening. We agreed to postpone our date until November. In a way I was quite pleased as my adventures with R had left me feeling quite tired!

Later on Wednesday morning J from London called me (we try to talk every day if we can). She knew I had deliberately stayed in a hotel away from her home in order to meet someone else, but she didn't know the details. When I mentioned that I had met the same person on both evenings and didn't get back to my hotel until the early hours, she was most intrigued. I said I might tell her the whole story next time we meet. At the end of our telephone conversation J said "Love you lots", and since then she has sent far more texts than normal, and phoned me two or three times each day. She always tries to get much closer to me when she suspects I have met another woman. I will next meet J later this month. It will be interesting to see what she asks me!

Back in Action

I have three dates in London next week. They are just dinner dates with no promise of anything more, but who knows?

I'll keep you posted.....

A Secret Admirer

I have just been browsing around some blogs and I came across one where the female blogger had given her answers to a set of questions. The last three questions and answers were:

Who did you copy this from?
A blog I found on HornymaleUK's blog.

How do you know them?
Through hornymaleUK - who I met through blogging. We've been talking over the internet for over a year.

Would you have sex with them?
With hornymaleUK - probably!

It seems I have a secret admirer who would like to have sex with me!

I am still here!

I know it's been ages since I last blogged. I thank those of you that have kept in touch and made sure that I am ok.

The last few weeks have been very challenging. I have been very very busy at work, sometimes staying away from home and not always being able to get an internet connection. I've been on holiday and had some weekends away as well. Also, my wife sensed that I was becoming more and more distant from her. She knows just a little about J from London and guessed that I was thinking of leaving our marriage.

Some weeks ago J and I resolved the issues that I had raised with her, and we seemed to be getting back on track. I even gave J a birthday present which she really loved. But when things came to a head with my wife, I knew I couldn't sustain the situation for very long. My wife was living on her nerves, J was very supportive but wouldn't give any commitment, and I was feeling torn.

For two days I stopped all communication with J so that I could think things through. I came to the conclusion that J does not really want to be with me longer term. Of course I will probably never know if I am correct to think that. J and I met and I told her the conclusion I had come to, and that I planned to stay with my wife. Both of us were upset for a few days. That night J sent me a text saying "life will be unbearable without you". I explained that giving up my hopes and dreams hurt me very much, but that I will probably always have deep love for her.

We will continue to be wonderful friends. We still talk most days; we plan to meet from time to time; and we continue to text and e-mail. Recently J asked me if anything has actually changed? I explained that what is in my head has changed. I am no longer constantly working towards us having a future together. I actually feel liberated. I was always truthful with J but there were times where I might select my words carefully. Now I just say and do whatever comes naturally. J says she likes the "new" me even more!

In some ways J and I have got even closer, but she now recognises that there will come a day when we will no longer be part of each other's lives.......

Who said being erotic is easy?

You may have already seen the post by Jackie Adshead about my latest erotic art experience.

Jackie had arranged another session for me to pose naked with her favourite female model. When we arrived, Jackie had already formed an idea for the pose. After some experimentation we got undressed and took up our positions.

If you look carefully at our bodies, it is quite obvious that nothing is actually happening between us. Jackie pointed out that it is left to the viewer to think about what might happen next, or maybe what has already happened!

Jackie's title of "Overcome" could have been "Come over"....

I was kneeling and supporting most of my weight on my left arm (which is out of sight). It is amazing how a pose that feels comfortable initially soon makes muscles ache, and I could feel the pressure on my left arm and wrist. The female model could feel the tension building in her back.

After about an hour, both of us needed a short break. I wandered over and stood next to Jackie to look at the emerging image. It was clear to me that there was still a lot of work to do. I had thought we would be taking up a fresh pose for another image, but she explained that this style of drawing takes a long time and that we would be doing only one image during this session.

On her blog, Jackie raises the question of how this image compares with our previous sessions. My descriptions of those sessions can be found here and here.

Yesterday, I showed this image to J from London. She liked the image and was interested in how we posed and produced it, but she feels it lacks passion. I wonder if there is something to learn from that observation?

A Decision about J

This will be a short post. It is too painful for me to write at length and I'm not giving any details as it is far too personal.

Over the last few days J and I have had some very challenging conversations, initially face to face and today on the telephone. The result is that I have come to the conclusion that J and I will never get together.

I would have much preferred that we had that decisive conversation face to face, but the heavy rain and floods meant that we couldn't meet today and maybe not any time this week. It meant talking about it over the telephone. J listened to what I said. Later she called me two or three times to check that I was ok. She said that we have not been good for each other today and that maybe we misunderstood things that were said. Although I have made the decision, I haven't fully accepted it yet.

The next few days will be interesting. The last time I went cool, J came on stronger. But it will take a lot to make me go back on this decision.

Events......

I know I've not blogged for a while. I've done a lot of travelling with work, and either got home too late to blog, had evening commitments, or been staying in hotels that don't have internet connections.

This is a photo of Mike and Oluchi Hill. You may have seen them in the news over the last few days. I'll explain later how Mike Hill impacted on my life!

Let me bring you up to date with J from London.

During the week before last J and I were staying in different hotels in the same town. We spent the evening together and she asked if I would help her with some work she is doing. J suggested that I could stay the night with her if it got late as there were two beds in her hotel room. I knew there would be no sex as we have discussed that aspect many times before. To cut a long story short, we did spend an evening and a night together in her room. We spent some time sleeping on the same bed, but also slept apart. No sex, and no nudity (apart from a few moments when I was naked but with my back to her). It was certainly a good way to see each other over a longer period of time. J always dresses well and likes to wear make-up. It was lovely to see her straight out of the shower in just a towel with no make-up. She looked gorgeous and I told her so.

One day last week we spent about 4 hours together. We got back to talking about a possible future together even though only two weeks earlier we had come to the conclusion it would probably never happen. It seems that we just can't let go of the idea. She said she loves me to bits, but it's my decision. J knows it is very hard for me.

I tried to fix a date for us to go away, however J has had second thoughts. She wants to spend quality time with me, but she is uncomfortable with going away to a hotel together. She says that if we end up staying in the same room because of work, then it's ok, but she feels uncomfortable about deliberately going away together as she thinks she will be responsible for damaging my marriage. I do understand her reasoning but the end result would be the same.

Over the weekend J and I exchanged many many text messages. Once again she mentioned her mother's objection to my age. This leads us to Mike and Oluchi Hill (pictured above). You may have seen the news item about their 3 year old daughter who was kidnapped in Nigeria last week (she was recovered today unharmed). None of the reports gave the age of her mother (Oluchi) but some of the reports mentioned that her father (Mike) is in his 60s. Given that their daughter is only 3, I sent a text to J pointing out that there must be a big age gap between them.

Apparently J's mother had also seen the news item and told J that Mike Hill is an example of an "old" man in his 60s. J passed on her mum's observation to me by text.

I replied by saying that if I end up looking as bad as that in my 60s then she has my personal permission to shoot me.

J's response was that by the time I know what I want to do with my life, I probably will look as old as that, and then it will be an easy decision for all of us!! :-))

7 Random Facts

Fex has tagged me and asked for 7 random facts about me! I'm not sure what people will find interesting, but here goes:

1. Early in 2006 I met UK Prime Minister, Tony Blair, in 10 Downing Street.

2. I am 58 years old.

3. I am a keen photographer.

4. My job requires the constant application of "soft" skills.

5. I love driving.

6. I enjoy a wide range of music, everything from heavy rock to classical.

7. I am active in voluntary community work.

Was that too boring?

Two naked models pose for Jackie

A few days ago I met Jackie Adshead (the erotic artist) again and this time with her favourite female model. This was the first time I met the female model and it made sense to spend some time talking to each other before getting naked and taking up an erotic pose!

I was concerned that the female model was comfortable about posing with me. In order to take up an erotic pose we would be touching each other, and we needed to establish limits. I assured her that I would not take any advantage of my close proximity to her.

Jackie suggested a very sexy first pose with the female facing into my groin giving the impression of her giving me a blow job. We asked the model if she would prefer me to keep my pants on, but she was happy for me to be totally naked as long as I didn't poke her in the eye!

I placed my hand at the back of her head to give the impression of pulling her towards me while she rested her right hand on my thigh. The result is this very sexy image.

I like the shape of both our bodies, and I particularly like the curves of the female. The eye flows naturally along her thigh, over her buttocks, up the curve of her back, to her head. The rest is in the imagination of the viewer.

After a short rest, we talked about a second pose. The female model suggested we reversed the roles with me giving the impression of going down on her.

She also suggested the idea of placing her leg over my shoulder so that my face would be out of view. Jackie asked the female to throw her head back in pleasure. The result is another very sexy image which we thought many women will relate to. We both found that pose physically very demanding, although I have to confess that my view did provide some compensation!

While resting and reviewing the work so far, we debated the nature of the third pose. We considered a "near" 69, but it was too difficult to find an arrangement that would give the artist a good enough perspective.

Finally, we decided to try a pose with the female sitting between my open legs. I sat on the floor and she sat in front of me leaning back. We both instinctively placed our hands where they seemed natural. It was a very comfortable pose. I had my back against a trunk, and the female model had most of her weight against my left thigh.

Jackie named this image "Lover of mine" as that was the music playing at the time. Very apt!

Incidentally, that is not my real face. Jackie has always been very concerned to protect my true identity.

Before you ask - No I did not get sexually aroused. Neither did the female model as far as I could tell! The reality was that neither of us found the other sexually attractive which was probably just as well. We got on well as people, and talked about a wide range of topics while posing.

I enjoyed the experience very much. All three of us are looking forward to the next occasion.

Some of you have asked me if J knows that I do this activity. I have told her all about it and she is very interested. She wants to see the images, and I will show her next time we meet. However, she did say that it is for me to decide if I want to show her the images of me naked from the first session!

J - An update

J from London and I were working in the same town on Friday. We met during the morning and had a long talk. She admitted that her mother was influencing her regarding my age. I said that earlier in the week I had sadly reconciled myself to the fact that we would probably never get together.

She had a room to herself, and suggested I join her and share the room for the rest of the day. We work on different projects, but I was able to give her some advice on a specific problem.

Towards the end of the afternoon, she suggested that we should spend some quality time together. I told her that I had been thinking about that, and I had an idea. I suggested we go away for two or three days to a high quality hotel in a quiet location - separate rooms and split the cost. To my surprise, she agreed and thought August would be ideal as that's her birthday month.

Later in the evening we exchanged text messages, including the following:

J:
Thank you for your time, support and company today. Really enjoyed being close to you :)
You're a really special man......

Me:
I enjoyed working with you too. I think we bring out the best in each other :)

J:
I agree. You are very special xx

Last night, we exchanged the following messages:

J:
Told my mother how much of a beautiful man you are.

Me:
Thank you for saying that about me. But did she argue?

J:
No. She listened and was genuinely impressed, as I always am about you :)

Me:
I am overwhelmed by your words. Maybe I will get away alive when I meet her! You are very special to me x :)

Even if J and I never become an item, we will clearly be very special friends.

A short exchange of messages

This short exchange of messages highlights J's position regarding my marriage.

A few days ago we collected a new kitten. I sent two photos to J.

J:
The kitten is just soooo lovely… I like the name too. Such a cutie… I can understand if he becomes an equal contender for your affections. :)

Me:
Well you know how much I love pussies :) :)

J:
Ooooooh – you are so naughty… :) :) :) You know what they say about the ‘quiet’ ones…

Me:
I am definitely two people – The professional, cool, official person. And the warm, passionate, tactile and sexy private person. Not many see the second. I suspect you have only had a glimpse …… so far……. :) :) :) :)

J:
Have I? When? :)

Me:
Maybe you haven’t!! ….. There is another person under the surface. You just have to find it, or allow it to emerge :) :)

J:
Ah I’ll just have to take your word then. I guess your marriage negates anything else :) :) :)

Me:
I know. It’s a shame :( .... But who knows what might happen …. :) :) :) :)

J:
Now that’s the spirit!! :) :)

For the sake of art

A date has now been agreed for me to pose naked again for Jackie Adshead, the erotic artist. This will be our second meeting An account of our first meeting can be found here, where you can follow links to see the images Jackie produced during that session.

There will be one big difference next time. I will be posing with Jackie's favourite female model who will also be naked.

As a newcomer to erotic art, I am aware that I will be placing myself in the hands of two experienced and sexy women - a perceptive erotic artist and a sexy and experienced female model.

I will be meeting the female model for the first time when we pose. I had hoped to establish some contact with her in advance in order to agree "rules of engagement" but it looks as if I will just have to play it by ear - if that's the appropriate part of my anatomy!

Reflecting on J

Regular readers will know that I have some potentially life changing decisions to make about my marriage and a possible future with J. I have exchanged e-mails, texts and online chats with a number of people. Some of them are fellow bloggers. You know who you are. I thank you all sincerely for your time, patience, understanding, questions and opinions. I hope our dialogues continue and that I can be of equal help to you. I have also talked to a few "real life" friends (not that internet friends are any less real). You will not be surprised to learn that they are all female.

Overwhelmingly people have advised me to be cautious. Both J and I recognise that there are major difficulties in our path. I have not written about all of those problems on this blog but some of you know the detail.

From the very first day we met, J has asked me challenging questions about my feelings and desires. Until recently I held back from asking her difficult questions. I feared she might get defensive or refuse to answer. The opposite is true. She always answers, sometimes at great length. Quite often she will add to her answer a few days later having given the question more thought. Knowing that she will answer any question I ask, I have decided to focus on a few aspects of our relationship.

The aspects I intend to explore are:
- What she finds attractive about me. I'm not after an ego boost. I just want to know what is driving her. In particular, does she find me physically attractive? I can't continue in a sexless relationship for ever.
- How would I fit into her family especially if we moved to her country? In her culture the families are very extended and very intrusive. Her cultural background is very different.
- If we did move to her country, how would I fit into society? Much of her country lives in third world conditions. My current job does not exist in that country. I do have other skills and knowledge that might provide an income or fill my time, but is that realistic? Would I be a fish out of water? A lonely white man in a black country? A freak? Even if I could establish a role, I would need to learn much about standards of behaviour and business ethics. I know J will help me but there is no substitute for experience.

These aspects have to be explored in depth. As a result I hope we will see a clearer way ahead even if it isn't the one we want.

J and her Mum

Two days ago I was working in the same town as J from London. She had some heavy bags so I offered to drive her home, a journey of just over two hours by car (and very difficult by public trnsport). She accepted willingly, but her only concern was that it would take me another hour to drive to my hotel.

During the journey she quickly turned the conversation to "us". I asked what she had said about me to her mum. Just to recap, her mum has come to this country to stay with her for about six months. Her mum is keen to see her daughter married and made J talk about all the men who have shown an interest in her. Being a beautiful woman, a lot of men are interested in J. She described each in turn. Her mum liked the sound of some of them, but J rejected them all. Then finally J said that there is one man she would marry, and described me! Her mum was not concerned that I already have children, but she was not keen on the age difference. She felt that I am far too old for J. That I will get sick. That J will end up being my nurse! Actually I am quite healthy and look about 10 years younger than my real age. However, her mum lives in a country where the average life expectancy is only 43, so her perception of "old" is quite different to ours.

I think her mum's reaction set her back for a few days, but when her mum started saying other crazy things, J just ignored her. As a result, J and I seem to be even closer than we were before. J assures me that I am the only man on her radar. She still wants me to meet her mum but feels it may be wise just to leave it a little while.

J and I plan to meet again during the next few days.

An Unexpected Event

Some time ago I posted some photos of M here. I first met M about four years ago. At the time she was in an unhappy marriage. We met many times, often for sex. She had never been unfaithful before meeting me. The sex with her was excellent - consistently some of the best sex I have ever had. To give you an example of the things we did take a look at this posting on my Fantasy Nuggets blog. M was the lady concerned.

About two years ago M decided to leave her husband. She made it very clear that she would be open to a permanent relationship with me, but she knew I wouldn't leave my wife. Quite soon after that she moved in with another man. She had known him as a friend for many years and they were very close. However, she and I continued to meet for sex. I expressed my concern that I didn't want to damage her new relationship but she said she couldn't give me up. Then rather carelessly she left a text message from me in her phone, and he read it.

Since then he has tried to control her life. He goes through her handbag every night, he looks in her mobile phone, and he never lets her go out anywhere unless he is with her. He called my number every day for a week (withholding his number of course, but I knew who it was). I never spoke to him, but it was an unpleasant experience. Although we stayed in touch by e-mail, we decided not to meet.

This week things came to a head. M emailed me and then phoned me. She can't put up with his behaviour any longer. They are going away together on a holiday quite soon, and if things don't improve she will leave him.

I wasn't sure what was in her mind but I decided to tell her something about J from London. I offered to meet M to talk, but I wanted to control any expectations she might have about us. I told J about this turn of events. J joked and said I might end up with two women as polygamy is permitted in her culture! I said I only wanted one woman and she knows who that is.

Will J be influenced?

J's mother has come to stay with her for a while and I know that J has told her about me. I'm hoping to talk to J today to find out exactly what was said and how her mother reacted. I know that her mother will not approve, and that is bound to influence J's thinking.

Some time ago J said that she would like me to meet her mother while she is in the country. It will be interesting to see if I ever get the invitation.

Big Steps with J from London

Over the last few weeks, J and I have had some very long telephone conversations as well as a few meetings. It is difficult for us to meet as J works out of town about 3 days a week and is often very tired by the time she gets home. I live over 100 miles from J but I often work fairly near to where she lives. When I stay overnight, I try to stay in a hotel that is quite near J's home.

About two weeks ago, we had a very long and very deep discussion about our relationship. J was clearly forcing the pace and was making me talk very openly about the state of my marriage, and my feelings for her. J always says that she won't allow herself to even think about a possible relationship with me for as long as I am married. However, she made it very clear that I "tick all her boxes" for a future husband!

During the days that followed, our conversation moved to the topic of children. I often say that she is beautiful, and she sometimes says that I am a beautiful person (I don't think she means my physical appearance). I said that our children would also be beautiful - both physically and in personality. J responded by saying that she agreed fully, and later added that mixed race children can be very beautiful.

J and I met one evening last week. She obviously made a big effort. She was dressed in a lovely summer blouse and skirt, and she was wearing the necklace I gave her some months ago. The large red stone looked gorgeous against her black skin. We spent nearly three hours in a wine bar. Initially we sat at a table facing each other, but gradually we moved our chairs until we were sat so close together that our faces were almost touching. We were totally oblivious to everything and everyone around us.

For a while we talked about general matters, but after a while J moved the conversation to "us". Soon we were talking again about marriage and children. I asked her if she had ever had such conversations with any other men. J said that she once thought a relationship might have been heading towards something permanent but she had never before discussed such matters. I asked if we were just playing games. J responded by saying that she would never play games with such serious matters.

I then posed two questions for us both to answer. I even suggested that we write our replies on paper as the first to answer could well influence the other, but J felt that was not necessary. I said that I already had my answers in my mind and promised not to change my answers when I hear her replies.

The first question was: "How badly do you want us to become a couple, get married, etc?" Answer on a scale of 1 (not at all) up to 10 (I'd move heaven and earth to achieve it). The answer in my head was 9..... I was amazed when J answered 9. I had no idea she felt that strongly.

The second question was: "How likely is it to happen?". Answer on a scale of 1 (never) to 10 (it's a certainty). The answer in my head was 5 as I recognised the difficulties posed by my marriage, the significant difference in our ages, our different cultural backgrounds, and the fact that I would need to reverse my vasectomy..... J answered 5.

We were pleased to discover that we are both in the same place regarding a possible future together.

In the last two days a very interesting thing has happened. By sheer coincidence, the team I am working with is moving to different office accommodation in the same town where J works. We met briefly yesterday, and talked about it at length on the phone today. There is no guarantee that we will both be working there on the same days, but it should make it easier for us to meet. We also talked about the idea of staying in the same hotel from time to time.

I need to think very carefully about the future. If I stay married, J and I will miss the opportunity to have a life together. But we will remain incredibly close friends. On the other hand, if I break up my marriage, the time delay might mean that J would not wait for me. J commented that I haven't asked her if she will wait for me, but we both agree that I cannot ask her to make that commitment while I am still married.

Female erotic artist plans another horny session

Some of you may also be readers of Jackie Adshead's Blog. If so, you will see that we are arranging another session for me to pose naked for her, but next time I will be with a naked female model.

Jackie is expecting a fun filled erotic session and I'm sure that will be the case. I have never met the female model and we will meet for the first time when we pose. I have often taken my clothes off with another woman for sex, but this will be the first time I will be naked with a naked woman for an artistic session albeit an erotic one!

There is no doubt I will find the experience both exciting and arousing. The challenge will be to harness the arousal in such a way as to create an erotic, but not porographic, image.

Horny Male meets Female Erotic Artist

I did it! I spent an evening posing naked for a female erotic artist!

The whole experience was very enjoyable. Jackie Adshead is a lovely lady who immediately put me at ease. My main concern was that I was going to face a somewhat fearsome artist who was going to just tell me to get undressed and stand at the other side of the room.

Jackie and I spent at least an hour and a half just talking. She told me about her life and her work as an artist. She showed me some of her previous erotic pictures as well as her favourite book of erotic images. We discussed the poses that might work best and the kind of image we wanted to create. Jackie had drawn some small sketches to illustrate her initial ideas, and had given considerable thought to the essence of "hornymaleuk". She also understood my need to remain anonymous.

We discussed the fine line between an erotic image and a pornographic image. I even obtained a definition from Wikipedia - Eroticism is an aesthetic focus on sexual desire, especially the feelings of anticipation of sexual activity. It is not only the state of arousal and anticipation, but also the attempt through whatever means of representation to incite those feelings.

When we felt ready to start, Jackie set up her equipment and I got undressed. I sat on the edge of a wooden trunk. Jackie suggested how I should sit, and suggested how I should arrange my hands - one on my thigh and one behind me.

In this pose, Jackie quickly did an initial sketch. She then spent a longer time painting a picture. Although I did find it hard to maintain the pose, the room was warm and the conversation flowed. I felt very much at ease. When Jackie showed me her first picture I was very pleased with the result.

Jackie then asked if I could stand and she would sit on the floor to view me from below. I stood with my legs apart and my hands at the top of my thighs. This pose seemed to please Jackie and I could see her really concentrating on me and her work. Having a woman study my naked body started to turn me on. I began to feel this was indeed a very erotic situation - the "aesthetic focus on sexual desire". Jackie put considerable effort into capturing the mood as well as the image. Towards the end I watched her adding the finishing touches. I found it exciting to watch her using a pencil to add detail to parts of my body. In my mind it was as if she was touching me.

We were both delighted with the second painting as it really captured the essence of "hornymaleuk".

Jackie gives her own description of our meeting here.

The two images can be seen here and here.

An Evening with K

Some time ago I mentioned that I had been chatting with a new woman called K - see the last paragraph of this item.

Having spent a lot of time chatting, K and I decided to meet. K is a very attractive lady. As soon as we met I felt that the chemistry was right. We were standing very close to each other and I felt the urge to touch her. Sensing my movement, she turned to face me and soon we were kissing passionately. It was only a matter of a few minutes before our mouths were opening and our tongues started playing.

It wasn't long before we started to remove items of clothing. It's hard to describe, but K had a look on her face which seemed to indicate that nothing else mattered other than our foreplay. Her expression showed total focus on me, and that she was mine to do whatever I wanted.

We spent a long time on foreplay. I kissed and sucked her nipples; her fingers stroked and held my cock; my fingers slipped inside her wet pussy and teased her clit; our kissing continued; I ran my hands over her ass. A couple of times I put my fingers in her mouth so that she could taste her own juices; something she clearly enjoyed. My cock leaked precum onto her fingers.

Eventually we could hold back no longer and I fucked her doggie style.

We both want to meet again, but distance and limited opportunities could make it difficult.

Progress with J from London

J and I spent most of a day together last week, and this week we have had some very long and deep conversations. This is on top of our non-stop contact by text (we exchanged nearly 1,200 text messages during March).

The content of our conversations are too personal, too complex and too long to report on this blog. Suffice it to say that J tells me that she feels as strongly and as deeply about me as I do about her. My marriage is still a barrier to her allowing sex at the moment. I can see that she is gradually moving in that direction, and she agrees with me. Readers may be amazed to learn that while I have known J for nearly six months, we have never had sex. J calls it "pure love". She has had enough of men who hit on her wanting sex and nothing more. We both feel it is delightful (if somewhat old fashioned) to spend time getting to know and understand each other. J feels that the sex will be both more passionate and more tender when it happens.

For the first time J also admitted that she felt very warm feelings the first time we met and felt the need for physical contact. I felt exactly the same at the time, however any physical contact would have been totally inappropriate that day as we were attending a business conference.

The future of my marriage is not the only issue. We have many other questions to ask and answer.

Naked

This week I will be posing naked for a female erotic artist. I wrote about this here in an earlier posting.

The artist is Jackie Adshead. Examples of her erotic work can be seen here. Jackie has also posted items on her blog in anticipation of our meeting.

Wish me luck!!

Away

I will be away for a week so no more posts for a short while.

An Update

J and I met for a few hours one night this week. We talked a lot about how we feel about each other and where things might lead. There are still more questions than answers. She admits that we have something special which she wants to protect, and she is open-minded about the future. However she cannot make any commitments for as long as I am married. She did say that she spends more time talking to me than anyone else in her life and that she thinks about me a lot. Although she denies it, J is a very attractive woman. She admits that she gets lots of offers from men but has declined all of them during the last year or so. I am the only person she meets on a regular basis. I told J that I could easily fall for her big time, but that I need some time to be sure that my feelings are real and not just a passing infatuation. I have never felt this way about a woman before. If we fail to communicate during a day, I feel very empty. I also need to consider the state of my marriage. J talked about some of the consequences of us getting together longer term. Maybe she is just thinking things through, but it's almost like she has already decided. On the other hand, I am blind to the consequences. I just want to know where we stand right now, and J can't answer that as she knows she can't have full access to me while I am married. It is interesting to remember that we have never had sex. We do hug and touch hands when we meet, and although that sounds very tame, J says those gestures have meaning for her.

Having said all that, I'm certainly not placing my activities on hold!

Recently I have started chatting to a new lady called K. She is a married woman who admits to enjoying sex with other men from time to time. Both of us recognise the importance of chemistry and agree that we cannot promise anything until we meet. It seems likely that we will meet later this month. I'm hoping I can write a very sexy blog about our encounter!

Interview Questions for Sexy Vixen and Mystery Woman

In my recent post here, Sexy Vixen and Mysery Woman offered to answer my interview questions.

My five questions for them are:

1. If there is one thing you could change about your life, what would it be?

2. What is your favourite sexual activity?

3. Have you ever participated in "water sports"?

4. If you could live anywhere in the world, where would it be?

5. What's the sexiest thing you have ever done at your place of work?

The rules for playing are: You WILL update your journal/blog thing/whatever with the answers to the questions (please don't leave your answers in my comments). You will also include this explanation and an offer to interview someone else in your post. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions (not necessarily the same as mine). You will also leave a comment saying, "Interview me." Others can then ask you questions.

An Artistic Twist

I am always open to new experiences both in my working life and in my sexual encounters, but something quite unusal has happened.

Via these blogs, I have been in dialogue with Jackie Adshead, an erotic artist. You can see many examples of her excellent work here or follow the link on the sidebar. We have talked about the possibility of me modelling naked for her.

Apart from the obvious reservations about taking my clothes off in a non-sexual situation, I was also intrigued by a thought provoking post by Lucy on our team blog, Fantasy Nuggets. Lucy's post includes a painting by Jackie and describes how a female model gets turned on by having sexy thoughts while posing naked for a male artist. It struck me that I could just as easily get turned on while posing naked for a female artist, and that the physical evidence of my thoughts would be totally visible!

Jackie assures me that as an artist she looks at naked bodies in the same way that she looks at a flower or a tree. However, that aspect has inspired a continuing dialogue, some of which is described on Jackie's blog here. As a hot blooded male I feel the art should portray my sexuality and some of our discussion has been about the difference between erotic art and pornographic images.

I'm looking forward to the experience even if a little nervous about it. I'm sure you will see more about this on both our blogs!

Progress with J

A combination of genuine reasons meant that I was unable to meet J from London this week. We were both very disappointed and made up for it by having some very long telephone conversations. The constant flow of text messages also continues. To give you some idea of how often we text, my mobile phone bill showed that we exchanged nearly 1,000 texts during the month of February alone.

During the last few days we have started to get to the heart of our relationship. It is quite clear that we both have strong and deep feelings for each other. We have started to talk about our personal circumstances and future desires, but without either of us explicitly stating how we feel about the other. There are two obvious issues: I am married, and she wants to spend some time back in her country of origin. Recognising the difficulty of taking this conversation much further on the phone, J has said that we must meet next week.

Given our poor record of actually meeting, it may not happen. We will see.....

An evening with MS

A couple of days ago I mentioned that I might meet MS while staying in London.

We arranged to meet yesterday after work and went to a pub in London's West End very near my hotel. We both had a large glass of red wine. There was plenty to talk about as we haven't met for some months. She made it very clear that she would not be coming back to my hotel room later.

The evening before, I had noticed an Italian restaurant further along the same street, so we decided to eat there. The food, wine and atmosphere was excellent. It proved to be a genuine Italian establishment, and somewhat up-market.

During the meal MS told me about some recent unpleasant events with her husband. I could see she was upset and touched her hand and arm. I quietly said that I would like to give her a hug. She smiled saying that a hug would be very welcome but not in the restaurant.

When we left the restaurant, MS put her arm around me. Normally I make the first move so I was pleasantly surprised. We walked to a very quiet spot where we stopped and kissed. The kissing was gentle but sensuous. Sometimes I kissed and nibbled the back of her neck. She undid a few buttons of my shirt and touched my chest and nipples. I slipped one hand under her top and caressed her breast through her bra. We were both getting turned on.

Still standing very close together, I held one of her hands and guided it towards my trousers. I let go of her hand and started to stroke her pubic area over her clothes. Her hand moved a little lower and I'm sure she became aware of my hardness even though she did not touch my cock directly.

I invited her to come to my hotel room. MS declined but did say that next time I am in London she would probably agree!

Interview

This is a bit of fun from Sexy Vixen. Below are my answers to her questions to me.

The rules for playing are: Leave me a comment saying, "Interview me." I respond by asking you five personal questions (I will leave these questions for you in my comments) so I can get to know you better. If I already know you well, expect the questions may be a little more intimate! You WILL update your journal/blog thing/whatever with the answers to the questions (please don't leave your answers in my comments). You will include this explanation and an offer to interview someone else in the post. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions.

Sexy Vixen asked me:

1) If there was one thing you could change about your life what would it be?
I would change my partner. If (or when) I do, I will delete this blog.

2) Have you ever bought any sex toys for another person if so who and what?
No.

3) Where would you most like to visit that you have not been to yet?
Three places - South America, Africa, and New Zealand.

4) Which of the photographs you have taken are you most pleased with?
I take a lot of photographs, but the most satisfying is usally the latest one here.

5) How often do you need to recharge the battery on your mobile phone?
I charge my phone every night, but I suspect it would last 2 or 3 days on a single charge.

Options

Next week I will be staying in London for three nights. I'm hoping to meet J but even if we do meet one night I will still have time alone on other nights. So I'm keeping my options open to meet MS, a married woman. I don't think I have mentioned MS before.

MS and I found each other on the internet over a year ago. Although we chat online, text and talk fairly often, we have only met three or four times. We usually have a couple of drinks, go to a restaurant for a meal, and then have even more to drink. We both enjoy red wine and we drink large quantities of it. Each time we meet we spend a lot of time kissing and touching, but we have never been to bed. I'm not sure that we ever will, but I'm happy to continue meeting her as we enjoy each other's company and have a lot of fun.

The last time we met we ended up in a late night coffee shop. We sat on stools, hidden from the other customers. MS just smiled when my hand rested on her thigh. She was wearing trousers. Gradually I moved my hand along her inner thigh until my fingers were stroking over her pussy on the outside of her trousers. She made no attempt to stop me.

More about J

J from London called me three or four times today, in addition to e-mail and text exchanges. This followed a long session exchanging texts late last night.

Something is happening between us. I just wish we could meet more often.

Is Patience a Virtue?

J and I never got to meet on Wednesday.

She phoned me during the evening to say that the business meeting she was leading had been delayed, and that she had only just got home after a journey of over two hours. She reminded me that she had stayed up very late the night before preparing for the meeting and that she was very tired. J wanted to have a short sleep and asked me to phone her later in the evening to wake her and arrange to meet up.

At the agreed time I called her but without success. I left her voice messages and text messages.

In the early hours of the night J phoned me to say that she had slept for much longer than she intended and unfortunately had left her main phone in the wrong room and didn't hear my calls.

I could tell from her voice that she was very tired. I tried very hard to be sympathetic but I did express my disappointment at the way the last two days had worked out. I even went as far as to say that I couldn't see how our relationship was ever going to get anywhere like this. J went very quiet and seemed to be quiet upset at my comment. We rang off and agreed to talk again in the morning.

I couldn't get to sleep that night. Part of my brain was telling me that I am wasting time and mental energy on J, but the other part of my brain was regretting what I had said. I want to spend more time with J and yet I was closing down that option.

In the morning J rang me at exactly the same moment that I was sending her a text. She was still feeling very tired and also had an upset stomach. I apologised for what I had said and showing my annoyance at not meeting. She said that what we have is far bigger than words and she fully understood my frustration.

We have agreed to meet up when both our work schedules allow.

I always have been a very patient man, but I do wonder if patience really is a virtue. I have thought a lot about my feelings for J. Clearly it's much more than just a desire for sex.

A slight delay

J from London rang me yesterday afternoon feeling stressed. She has to lead an important business meeting today at a location that requires travelling for two hours, and needed to spend the evening preparing. She suggested we delay our date to this evening.

In many ways this is a much better arrangement. J will be free of the stress of the meeting, and she told me that she does not have to travel on Thursday morning.

She has already called me twice this morning......

Looking forward

Tomorrow evening I should be meeting J from London. Even though I visit London two or three days each week, it has been difficult to arrange a meeting because J also does a lot of travelling with her job. Either we are just in different places or she has got home too late to be able to meet up. However, we continue to to e-mail, text and talk on the phone every day, and some of our conversations have been very long and quite deep. We did manage to meet up for just a drink together about two weeks ago. J was unwell and very tired, and had cancelled a number of dates with her girlfriends, so I was very pleased that she made the effort to meet me. She had also made a big effort to dress up and looked absolutely gorgeous. She turned quite a few heads in the bar where we met.

I have also continued to chat with C from Oxford. She also has a very demanding job but is keen to meet again. We have agreed to meet on 2nd April, probably at the same hotel where we first had sex. It is a very quiet country hotel with a lovely bar and restaurant, and the bed was large and very comfortable!

Another of my favourites is M. I have known M for over two years and we have had sex many times. A few months ago her man discovered a text message from me on her mobile phone so we have had to play it very cool and not meet. Little does he know that we are still in contact via e-mail at her workplace. We are both keen to meet again. We always have a lot of fun together.

D from North East England would like to meet up again. I would like to meet her but it is difficult for a number of reasons not the least of which is the distance between us. Her husband recently took early retirement which means he is around the house making it difficult for her to get out alone.

I don't think I have ever mentioned J from the North West. She runs her own business and has limited opportunities to meet. We first met about two years ago and have had sex three or four times. We keep in touch mostly by text. We are both keen to meet again when I get the chance to be in her area.

Although I have kept in touch with L from Birmingham we won't be meeting again. A couple of weeks after we met she contacted me saying that she really wants to find a man that can become a partner. She enjoyed the evening with me very much but knows that it can never develop into anything more serious as I am married.

Chemistry

Regular readers will know that I met Lady in Red on Tuesday evening. I booked into a hotel near her home. At the agreed time I waited in the hotel reception area for her.

When she arrived she really was the lady in red - red jacket and red skirt. We kissed and decided to put her bag and in my room before having something to eat and drink.

Once inside the room, we started kissing. Gently at first, and gradually more passionate. It wasn't long before we moved to the bed and our hands started wandering! However, I began to realise that the chemistry wasn't strong enough. I hesitated before saying anything as I didn't want to upset LiR, but when I mentioned what I thought, she agreed with me. The lust and passion just wasn't strong enough.

We decided that we would still have an enjoyable evening and so went down to the restaurant. Conversation flowed easily and we discussed a wide range of subjects. I enjoyed her company very much.

LiR gives a very sensitive and accurate account on her blog here. I suggest you read it. I'm sure that LiR and I will remain friends but on a different level.

Lady in Red

Over the last week or so I have got chatting with Lady in Red. At first we just left comments on each others' blogs, then e-mails and online chats, and now text messages and phone conversations. We seem to have much in common including a passion for sex.

She told me that there is a meeting of UK based sex bloggers on 31 March in London. That's difficult for me as I am married, but I should be able to stay away on the previous night and I invited Lady in Red to share my hotel room.

After more chatting, we have also arranged to meet on 6 March. It seems like we are both keen to get to know each other!

Team Blog

Everything in this blog is true, but I've started a new Team Blog with Lucy which will contain short fantasy items.

Click here to visit.

Is J just teasing me?

A couple of days ago I sent J from London some photographs by e-mail. Realising that the attached files were very large, I sent her this e-mail:

You might want to make sure the e-mails with the photos attached have been permanently deleted from your mail. I don't want to be responsible for filling up your mailbox ;-)

To which she replied:

Ok – so what would you rather be responsible for? (smile)

I replied:

I nearly wrote that I would like to be responsible for filling your box..........

To which she responded:

Me thinks you require a firm hand so to speak (smile).


Is she just teasing me or is she ready for sex? Please tell me what you think.

A Recommended Author?

I was very pleased, and somewhat surprised, to find myself listed as a "Recommended Author" by Lucy Felthouse. Visit her site here.

There is one big difference between us. She writes very good erotic fiction. This blog is all fact :-)

To bed with L from Birmingham

Last night I met with L from Birmingham. I had booked a room in a hotel and we met there during the evening.

We went to the bar for a drink and a light meal and then moved to my room. As soon as we got into the room we started kissing - long, hard kisses with our tongues playing. We held each other tightly and she soon must have felt my hardness against her.

It didn’t take long to remove all of our clothes except our underwear. I could see through her bra that her nipples were hard, and the tent shape at the front of my pants revealed my high level of arousal.

We moved onto the bed. We continued kissing while our hands explored each other’s bodies. One of my legs moved between her legs and soon we were grinding our pubic areas against each other.

I moved to the side so that my hands caressed her breasts, while my mouth planted kisses along her thighs. I kissed her on her knickers, which had become quite damp, and then pulled the material aside so that I could plant one lingering kiss directly on her moist pussy lips.

She removed her bra, and when I started kissing and sucking her nipples, she threw her head back and moaned with pleasure. Clearly her breasts and nipples are very sensitive. It didn’t take long before she pulled down my pants exposing my rampant cock. I slipped off her knickers as well, so that we became totally naked.

I continued to suck her nipples while slipping first one, and soon two fingers inside her. I curled my fingers to stroke her G spot and soon she was moaning loudly and shaking with pleasure. I kept my fingers working and began to lick around her clit at the same time. She got wetter and wetter!

After her first climax, we returned to kissing but now my hard cock was rubbing against her pussy and clit. Soon the temptation became too great. She handed me a condom, which I slipped on, and without any further delay I started to fuck her. At first it was slow and gentle, then I lifted her legs up over my shoulders so that I could fuck her deeper and faster. When she lowered her legs, I kept up the speed and we could hear my flesh slapping against her pussy and upper thighs.

We then turned over so that L was on top. I love having the girl on top of me. I like to see what is going on and have both hands free. She soon lowered herself onto my cock and started to fuck me. We moved together, and increased the speed and pressure. At one stage I was pulling her ass towards me, with my hands while sucking her nipples and fucking her hard and deep.

The she asked if I would fuck her from behind. Who was I to refuse? In no time she was on her knees and I was fucking her doggy style. I rubbed her back with my hands while my balls slapped against her clit with each thrust of my cock. That really did it for her, and soon she climaxed again.

We cuddled and kissed and talked quietly for a while. Then she took my cock (still in the condom) and started to lick it. Gradually she took it into her mouth. She held the base of my cock and sometimes stroked my balls while moving her mouth along the length of my cock, sucking it into her mouth. That was the first time a girl has given me oral while wearing a condom. It felt different but still very sexy and very pleasurable.

Then she made another request. She said she just loves to see a man make himself cum. I quickly agreed and removed the condom. I kneeled at her side with my cock just above her breasts. She watched as I held and stroked my cock. I suggested that she could join in, so she held my cock as well. Two pairs of hands provided plenty of stimulation and it didn’t take long before I shot my cum all over her breasts and nipples. I was quite surprised at the amount. It seemed more than usual. We hugged each other and spread my sticky cum over her nipples.

Eventually she left to go home. We both got dressed and I walked with her to her car. I am quite sure that L and I will be meeting again!

A Long Evening with J from London

Yesterday J from London attended a training course at a location about two hours travelling time from her home. I offered to pick her up at 5:30pm and drive us either to her home or my hotel. She accepted my offer with enthusiasm.

During the journey she said that she had no need to go home, so I drove us to my hotel, which was about 3 miles from her home. When we arrived at the hotel, I checked in, and we both went to my room. I unpacked; we chatted for a short while, and soon decided to go to the restaurant for a meal.

Having eaten, we returned to my room. Now remember that there has been almost no physical contact between us up to this point. We sat and talked for a while and then she asked to lie on the bed, intimating that I should join her. We removed our shoes but remained fully dressed.

We continued talking. After a little while I was pleasantly surprised when she stroked my hand with one of her fingers. It might not sound much, but given her previous resistance to any form of physical contact, the result was quite electrifying. I took it as a signal that I could touch her.

Our fingers played while we continued talking. Gradually our heads and bodies got nearer. Our bare feet were touching. We started to cuddle and I kissed her head and her cheeks. She gave me one very quick kiss on the lips but firmly resisted my attempts to kiss her lips again, saying that she couldn’t trust herself.

Nothing else happened. At about midnight I drove her back to her home.

This may all seem very tame compared to my other blogs, but I think it’s significant progress towards seducing her. We have agreed to meet again in about two weeks. J has suggested that we keep the following day clear so that we can stay up late and not worry about work the next morning.

L from Birmingham

Last night I met up with L from Birmingham for a drink. We met in the bar of a large hotel and spent just over two hours together. As before, conversation flowed easily.

She did admit to finding it difficult to concentrate on talking when I put my hand under her long hair and started to caress the nape of her neck. She was clearly enjoying the sensations so I kept my hand there for quite a long time - my fingers stroking her neck, her ears, her shoulders, and the top of her back. From time to time we exchanged little kisses. We talked about our meeting in a hotel room next week.

When we walked out to the car park, I slipped my hands under her top and touched her skin. She responded with passionate kisses, our tongues played and explored. She put her hand on the back of my head and pulled me closer. She must have felt my rising excitement!

We were planning to spend time in a hotel room on the 24th but we discovered a clash of appointments. It's no big deal. We will either re-arrange or somehow resolve the difficulty.

Shower Shot

Here is an interesting photo of me in the shower. It's quite artistic.......

J from London

I first met J from London at a conference early in November last year. We talked briefly during the afternoon session and agreed to meet up later in the evening following the conference dinner. We sat talking for a few hours – well into the night. Most of our conversation was about aspects of the work that we do and I was able to give her some help with a particular problem. When we eventually parted, it didn’t seem appropriate to make any physical contact or to kiss. I didn’t want to give any impression that she “owed” me anything. As we parted, she asked if I ever come to London. I told her that I usually visit once or twice a month and that I would take her out for dinner. We exchanged e-mail addresses and mobile phone numbers.

Since then, we have been in almost daily contact - sometimes by e-mail, but more often by text message or by talking on the phone. Many of our telephone conversations are long, typically an hour or more. Quite soon the subjects of our conversations were no longer related to work and became very wide-ranging.

We met again during December. She said she was really pleased to see me. Apparently she finds my voice very calming when she is stressed, and she always feels happier after we have talked or exchanged text messages. We had dinner together that evening and she soon realised that I wanted to seduce her. She was not taken aback by the idea. In fact she seemed flattered and pleased. However, she expressed concern about me being married. She said that if she gave me full access to her mind and body then she would want to be able to pick up the phone and call me at any time of day or night – clearly an impossible idea knowing my wife would be aware of the call.

Our texts and telephone calls continued. We met again on Wednesday this week. She admitted that she has feelings for me that are stronger than just platonic. She said I am important in her life. She said that she thinks about me more often than I could ever imagine. However, she continued to resist all but trivial physical contact. However, she did talk about the possibility of being seduced by me, and added that she could well be tempted if it wasn’t for my marriage. She does not want to become the “other” woman.

On Thursday morning we talked on the phone for nearly three hours. She wants to meet me as often as possible. We both admit that something is happening between us.

We agreed to meet again next week, probably during the day if our workloads allow. A daytime meeting might be better as she does get very tired late in the evening (she insists that her tiredness at that time of day is absolutely no reflection on my company).

I’m not quite sure where this will all lead. Clearly we like each other very much and we enjoy being together. I’ll keep you posted…….

Recent developments

I've been chatting to C from Oxford. She is very busy with work this month so we may well meet again in February.

J from London and I are meeting tomorrow evening. She is always pleased to talk to me and meet me, and is particularly pleased that I have booked into a hotel very near where she lives. However, I know she will be difficult to seduce, so I may not have much to report.

Following lots of texts and online chats with L from Birmingham, she has agreed to go to bed with me. In fact, she is very keen! We have booked into a hotel on 24th January, and will probably meet for a drink next week.

M from London contacted me to say she didn't mean to come on so strong the other evening when chatting on MSN. She says she is happy to meet for drinks and meals but can't promise anything more. The last time we met she said that when we kiss she dare not go near my hotel as she wouldn't be able to stop herself. I think it is just a matter of time!

J from Liverpool has gone cool. Maybe this one isn't going to work out.

An Interesting Weekend

It's been an interesting weekend.......

D from North East England made contact and is very keen that we go to bed again soon. Her family circumstances make it difficult but she says she can arrange it.

I mentioned M from London in a recent post. We were chatting on MSN last night and the chat became much more explicit than ever before. She asked when I will next be in London.

Also over the weekend I got chatting with J from Liverpool. Lots of potential here I think!

So the list gets longer.......

Developments

Last night I met L from Birmingham for a drink. We only had a couple of hours together but it was plenty of time to realise that there is a mutual attraction. Conversation flowed easily and we made lots of eye contact. As we walked towards the cars, we stopped and kissed, and she suggested that we should meet again.

Next Wednesday, I am staying the night in London, and I have arranged to meet J from London.

I have just sent an e-mail to M as it is her birthday tomorrow. At the moment we can't make telephone contact. I am hoping that we can meet up again soon.

Current Favourites

At the start of a new year, I thought I would list my current favourites:

C from Oxford. We have only met once but I'm sure we will meet again during 2007. We share a mutual interest in sex. She knows that I meet other girls and I know that she meets other men.

J from the North East. I first met J about two years ago. She is married and runs her own business, which makes it difficult for us to meet very often. She has told me she would like to meet me again soon.

J from London. I met J at a conference about two months ago. Since then we have been in daily contact by e-mail, text or telephone. We have only met once and that was just for dinner. I think it may take a long time before J and I go to bed - if ever.

L from Birmingham. L and I just started chatting on the internet a couple of days ago. We are meeting tomorrow for a drink. I'll let you know what happens.

M from London. We have met a few times for drinks and meals out. We have kissed and touched but have not yet been to bed. We both know that we will have sex the next time we meet.

M . M and I have met many times mostly for sex but sometimes just for a drink. We have spent quite a few nights together. Her man recently discovered a text from me on her phone, so we haven't met recently. However, we stay in touch by e-mail and I am sure we will meet again soon.

Happy New Year!

Elizabeth from UK

This is a great photo but I can't claim to have seduced her!

B from East Midlands - Update

In an earlier post I mentioned B from the East Midlands. Well, we met up last Thursday.

I arranged to stay at a hotel quite near her home and she willingly agreed to meet me there for a meal.

I sat in the hotel reception and waited for her. When she arrived, my initial reaction was not too good as she looked older than in her photos. We sat in the bar and had a drink, and conversation flowed quickly and easily. It didn't take long before we were flirting with each other. I soon overcame my reservations. I found her funny, intelligent and confident.

We decided to move to the restaurant. I noticed that she had brought quite a heavy outdoor coat. I suggested it might be better to put her coat in my room rather than take it into the restaurant. When she agreed, I offered her the choice of waiting for me in reception, or to come with me to my room. You guessed - She decided to walk with me.

Once inside my room we started kissing. Even on the first kiss her lips were open and her tongue was ready to play with mine. We held each other close and I am quite sure she could feel my hardness against her body. When I kissed and nibbled her neck, she started to moan with pleasure and her hands moved over my back.

At that point we decided to return to the restaurant. We both knew that we would have to return to my room to collect her coat.

When we ordered the food I asked if she wanted to share a bottle of wine, but added that I would understand perfectly if she didn't want alcohol as she had to drive home. B agreed to share a bottle, dismissing my concern about driving.

During the meal I noticed that one of her legs was rubbing against mine. I put my hand under the table and touched her other leg above the knee (which was out of view of anyone else). I was very pleased to discover that she had already pulled her skirt part way up her thigh, so my hand was able to stroke most of the length of her thigh.

We returned to my room. The kissing restarted immediately and now with more passion. Our hands were moving over each other, but neither of us touched the other on any sexual area. We were both teasing!

It wasn't long before we were both naked and on the bed. Now we couldn't resist any further. Her hands were soon on my cock, and my mouth and fingers started on her nipples and soon moved down to her pussy. She was incredibly wet. I inserted more fingers until eventually I had four fingers inside her, while my tongue and my thumb played around her clit.

Then I fucked her. I love the sensation of feeling a girl's flesh opening up to take me. It's even better if I can see what's happening. Eventually I shot my cum inside her and we both collapsed into each other's arms.

We must have fallen asleep like that for a while. When we woke up I suggested we got under the covers. She turned off the lights. It was quite obvious she intended to stay the night.

My alarm woke me quite early. She was waking slowly. I pulled back the covers and noticed her nipples were hard and I couldn't resist. Very gently, I grazed the palm of my hand over each of her nipples. The touch was very light and seemed to have the right result on her. I pulled the covers down further and opened her legs. Once again she was very wet. She murmured that this was a great way to be woken up. She used both hands to hold and stroke my cock which was now ready for more action.

I needed to get to work and she needed to get home, so we didn't stay in the room for very much longer.

Even though we had a good time, I feel there was something missing. I can't quite put my finger on it (so to speak) but I don't think B and I will meet again.

Naked Women ..... Naked Men?

One of my favourite blogs is Lara. Her writing is interesting and her photographs are fantastic. Being male (and horny) I enjoy looking at naked, or near naked, attractive women and Lara is certainly very attractive.

But it's more than just being naked. You can find plenty of naked women at World Wide Wives. However most of those pictures are sexy rather than erotic. Indeed some of them are hard core, but you have to become a member to see those. I am a member (of course!). The thing about Lara's photos is that they are all self portraits - she is both the model and the photographer. She carefully uses the camera, its tripod, or other objects to either accentuate parts of her body or to hide parts of her body. Some of her best examples include:
http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/7827/1390/1600/m070.jpg
http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/7827/1390/1600/m016.jpg
http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/7827/1390/1600/SitWithHat.jpg

Lara sometimes mentions her contributions to Voyer Web which shows sexy self-shots. Some of these are excellent. Examples include:
http://bb.voyeurweb.com/vww/see_fullsize.php?id=17532
http://bb.voyeurweb.com/vww/see_fullsize.php?id=17513
http://bb.voyeurweb.com/vww/see_fullsize.php?id=17449
http://bb.voyeurweb.com/vww/show_fullsizenew.php?id=17192
http://bb.voyeurweb.com/vww/see_fullsize.php?id=17576

Clearly most men and many women enjoy looking at naked women, but how many people like looking at naked men? World Wide Wives does have a "Willies" section, but it is mostly just willies and very little else, and most of the photos are of poor quality.

So girls, let me know if you would like to see some similar photos of a man! If there is enough interest I might get out my lenses!!

B from East Midlands

Just over a week ago I started chatting online to B. Within two days we had exchanged mobile phone numbers and the texts have been flowing ever since. We seem to share the same sense of humour and we both enjoy banter with a saucy edge. Sometimes it's more of a turn on to tease rather than to be totally explicit.

I knew it wouldn't be long before we agreed to meet. We are meeting on Thursday evening. I have booked a room in a hotel, and she has willingly agreed to meet me there for drinks and a meal.

It might lead nowhere. Let's wait and see............

Penis Soup

I am grateful to a fellow blogger who included this link in one of his blogs. Apparently it's all true!

Click here to read the story.

M from Birmingham

For the last two or three weeks I have been chatting online with M from Birmingham. She is married but has a sex drive that her husband does not seem to satisfy. It seems that she is looking to meet women rather than men, but our conversations have become quite sexy and I think both of us are aware of the temptations and opportunities!

As yet, we have made no arrangement to meet. We did talk about possibly meeting for lunch. More recently, we have chatted about going to a local swingers club as a "couple" just to enjoy the atmosphere and see what happens. It seems that once inside the club members either wear beachwear or just towels. An attractive facility is the jacuzzi and we have chatted about the possibility of being naked together in the jacuzzi, or maybe just wearing the absolute minimum to add to the excitement.

I'm not sure what will happen. I'll keep you informed.........

C from Oxford

Last night I had my first meeting with C from Oxford. We have been chatting online for about 2 or 3 weeks, and decided to meet.

I booked a room in a very quiet hotel in a very small village. We met in the car park, and I was encouraged when our first small kiss was directly on the lips.

We sat in the bar and had a drink while waiting for our food to arrive. Having eaten, I sat next to her and soon we were kissing. She readily agreed when I suggested we should go to my room.

Once we were inside the room, the serious kissing started. I was soon aroused and she started to move her body against my hardness. When I kissed her neck I could feel her body melting. She was wearing a fairly low cut top and soon my fingers were tracing along the sides of her breasts and into her cleavage. She responded by rubbing her hand across my hardness.

We removed our shoes and moved to the bed. Lots more kissing as our hands moved over each other's bodies. Soon we were down to just our underwear. Her lovely breasts were pushing against her pretty bra. I noticed that her knickers were very small and very thin at the front. Her pubic hair was showing and her aroused sex lips were peeping out of the sides of the material.

I slipped off her bra, releasing her ample breasts. Her nipples were already aroused and some kissing and gentle sucking really made them stand out hard. Slowly, I kissed my way over her stomach and planted kisses on her knickers directly over her pussy lips. She reached out and removed my pants. My hard cock popped up in response to the cool air as I became totally naked. While my fingers pulled her knickers to one side, her fingers stroked along te length of my cock.

Soon her knickers were on the floor and we were both totally naked. I parted her very moist sex lips with my fingers and used my tongue to explore between her lips and as far into her hole as my tongue could reach. I inserted one finger, then two fingers inside her and stroked her G spot while my tongue teased around her clit. I could tell that she was getting very excited. When I licked across her clit, it didn't take long before she was squealing with pleasure and came!

She needed time to relax and recover, so we just cuddled and stroked each other. She really liked my gentle touch. My fingers and mouth gently explored her whole body. After a while I started again on her pussy. She was very wet and open, and even wetter after I brought her to another climax.

I spent about two hours giving her pleasure. She became so relaxed that she very nearly fell asleep. At one point she admitted that I was doing all the work. Eventually my erection began to fade away, so we didn't fuck. However we have agreed to meet again soon and fucking will be a priority for next time!

Photographs

Here are a few photos I really like. Unfortunately I didn't take any of them!

Breasts

I usually think of myself as a "leg man". But I'm sure you can see why I could not resist taking this lady to bed!

We spent a night together in a hotel. She brought a pearl necklace which she invited me to slip inside her wet pussy. It tasted delicious as I pulled it out slowly with my mouth.

Of course, I filled her pussy with my hot cum.

Collaborative Erotic Writing

A few years ago, I got chatting on the internet with P from Scotland. We wrote an erotic story by exchanging e-mails.


I WROTE

I am boarding a train. It's going to be quite a long journey, about 2 hours. I'm on my way to a training course and we have been told to dress casually. For a bit of fun, I have decided to go 'commando'. My trousers are linen and very soft, so they tend to show the outline of what’s inside!It's going to be a long journey so I walk through the train looking for someone to sit with. I see a woman (you) and the first thing I notice is your clear blue eyes. As I get nearer, I see that you are wearing a split skirt that is revealing some of your thigh. This is a good place to sit!You are sitting next to the window, and you indicate that the seat next to you is available. I reach up and put my briefcase on the luggage rack above your head. I'm not sure, but I think I catch you looking at the front of my trousers. As I sit down, you cross your legs towards me, revealing even more thigh.
I open up a newspaper and hold it with both hands. My right hand is very near (but carefully not touching) your leg. We chat about the items of news in the paper, and I make you laugh a few times - always a good sign.You make comment about a photograph in the paper. You reach across and touch the photo with your finger. The paper is resting on my lap. Is it a coincidence that the photo happens to be directly above my partial erection? I wonder if you are able to feel anything through the paper and the linen?


SHE WROTE

We have stopped at yet another station I wonder if there will be anyone interesting getting on as the last lot of passengers were rather dull and boring a lot of business men on their way to important meetings therefore too busy looking at their paperwork to notice me!I have moved over to a vacant seat beside a window I as watch the next lot of passenger get on there a few interesting characters that get my attention most of them walk on to seats further on up the train but one man slowly walks up the aisle looking as he goes just he approaches my section I smile at him he is of average height, med build with a nice smile.He is very well dressed, you can see he takes time in the choosing of his clothes and his appearance I notice he is very casual but smart dressed wearing what looks to be like linen trousers (very smart). He asks if the seat next to me is taken, I smile and say no it’s free. He reaches up to put his bag in the luggage rack above our heads. He's quite close to me. Can’t help but notice .......... surely I’m wrong but I can make out the outline of him through his trousers. (My mind has some nice thoughts running through it).
I’m glad I took a little bit of effort dressing this morning a skirt with a side split not too much but shows a bit of thigh as well as a blouse. He sits down next to me and takes out his paper making the odd comment about the weather and things in the paper. I make myself more comfortable. .............Crossing my legs I notice him looking out of the corner of his eye..... I may have flashed him a bit of thigh there ..........A small smile grows on his face I think this is going to be a very enjoyable journey today!!!


I WROTE

We continue talking and laughing. I am still holding the edge of the newspaper in my right hand. The train jerks as we go over a bumpy bit of track, and my hand rests against your bare thigh. We briefly glance at each other and both smile. I take that as a sign that I can leave my hand where it is.After a few minutes I suggest that we take a walk to the buffet car and buy a coffee. You agree, and we start to walk through the train. When we arrive at the buffet it is very busy and we have to join quite a long queue. While we talk, we stand facing each other and we are very close because it is so crowded. Once again the train lurches and you fall towards me. I take firm hold of you and the full length of our bodies touch. Rather than pulling away, I continue to hold your body against me. I can feel your breasts against my chest.... I whisper in your ear "This is very enjoyable". The smell of your perfume is getting me quite aroused. I am thinking about my next move...........


SHE WROTE

I am feeling very comfortable talking and sharing the odd joke with him. I go to point out something in the paper when I accidentally push down on the paper which was resting on his lap ....... and I'm sure I could feel a slight erection ..........I look at him to see if he's shocked that I touched him.He looks at me and smiles. Today the journey is very bumpy. The train is making us bump together every now and then which we laugh about. Its during one of these moments that my skirt that has risen up a bit exposing a bit more thigh allowing your hand to touch my thigh. ...........A warm feeling flows through my body as we both glance at each other. You leave your hand where it is resting.

It’s during this quiet moment that you ask me if I want to go for a coffee. I agree it’s a good idea as I need to stretch my legs. As we stroll through the other carriages to the buffet car we find that there is a long queue. As we take our position in it I turn to face you so that we can still chat. It's then that the train lurches forward and throws me forward.I'm glad that you catch me. Our bodies touch each other when you catch me.Holding me safe your mouth is close to my ear when you whisper that you find this very enjoyable I whisper back that I do also. I can hear you inhaling my perfume. After a few more lurches of the train we almost look embarrassed at each other.... Having realised that we might have gotten carried away and have we not realised that we were not alone.We laugh about what has happened. As we wait for our coffee you insist on paying .............


I WROTE

I pay for the coffee, and since the train is so bumpy I suggest that it might not be a good idea to carry hot drinks through the train. We move away from the serving area, and luckily there are two high stools at the very end of the bar.As you raise yourself onto the high stool your skirt rides up and, together with the split, I am able to see a lot of your thigh. At one point I even glimpse your white knickers.Getting onto my high stool stretches the material at the front of my trousers, making the outline of my growing excitement quite visible.
Luckily, the buffet is almost empty now.We are very close to each other. I lean towards you, and I whisper, "Can I kiss you?” I await your reply...........


SHE WROTE

We have moved over to two seats by the bar having decided that it was too risky to ourselves and others to try and carry back the coffee. So we move over to two seats by the bar. They are very high so with extreme difficulty I climb up which is difficult without my skirt riding up.
I notice that you can’t stop looking as you help me. Then it’s your turn I notice that the material of your trousers has grown taut exposing a slight swelling. I look appreciatively at it thinking.... I wonder what it would look like in the flesh….. And how it feels.
As we sit drinking our coffee he leans forward and whispers so that no one will hear.“ Can I kiss you"?
I look at him and smile. Then I look around....... the carriage has been slowly emptying of people, so I lean forward putting my hand on his thigh to steady myself.I tenderly kiss him ever so softly on his lips, which feel soft. My tongue sliding to his lips which are slightly parted and just flicks inside.
Think that this has taken him by surprise (I hope I haven’t been too forward).I move my hand up his thigh can feel the smooth material under my hand as I caress his leg.Can feel something swelling as I move my hand up. Giving him a gentle squeeze.My other hand has snaked around his neck pulling him closer as our tongues flick against each other mmmmm.

At the end of our kiss we both look into each other eyes knowing we both enjoyed what happened. I look around wondering if anyone has noticed what has happened but the carriage is just about empty and I think to others, we look as though we are a couple.


I WROTE

When I ask if I can kiss you, you lean towards me and I notice that you have large but lovely shaped breasts. As you lean your blouse falls forward and I get a glimpse of your lacy white bra. Seems that you are wearing matching lacy underwear. I like a woman that cares about her underwear, and lacy is sexy!Our first kiss is very tender, and I slightly part my lips. You sense my interest and you slide your tongue between my lips. I move my tongue to meet yours and our tongues flick. I am getting more aroused!To maintain your balance, you have rested your hand on my thigh. As we kiss I can feel your hand moving along my thigh. I know that I am quite hard and large, and I wonder how far your hand will travel.... That idea is getting me even more aroused!!Our kisses become more passionate. Our mouths are moving against each other's and our tongues are playing and searching. I feel your fingers as they just touch my hardness, and then you squeeze me. (I am thinking that you know what you want!)Your other hand moves around my neck, and I hold your body with my thumbs gently pressing the underside of your breasts.Eventually, we look at each other. It is obvious that we both enjoyed that very much and that we are both getting turned on.I touch your mouth and run my finger along your lips. You look me directly in the eye and start to suck my finger into your mouth. You do it very very slowly, and I can feel your tongue licking my finger as it enters your mouth. We both know what it means!!! The buffet car is empty now and the barman cannot see us.... So I place my hand on your thighs, just above your knees. Still looking into my eyes, you part your legs just enough to allow my hand to move along your inner thigh....
Your skin is so soft and smooth.... I dare not go too far.... You lift one foot onto a higher rail of the stool so that one knee is higher than the other.
That gives me a view right up to your knickers. I'm not sure, but it looks as if you might have a damp patch.......


SHE WROTE

As our kissing becomes more intense I can feel not only myself getting aroused but he is too.We part for a few minuets and you run a finger along my lips which I proceed to draw into my mouth to suck.My tongue sliding up and down it as I suck.
You have placed a hand on my thigh just letting it climb a bit feels so soft on my skin.
You only go so high then you stop.I wonder why and if you will start again I hope you do ............To let you know it’s what I want I part my legs a little as well as lifting my leg slightly. I know you can see the top of my thigh and I hope he can also see something else. Because I know it will be evident.Because I can feel that I am moist and have been almost since he stood before me.I know that he has looked at my breasts when I leaned forward and I think he will have seen my swollen nipples.
I know that he is very aroused too. Because I have felt it
I take a finger and run it up and down his length stopping at the tip circling it. I know he likes that as he draws a deep breath mmmmmm. I like it too.Feels so firm mmmmmmmmm

The carriage is empty now apart from the bar man and I'm sure that he can’t see us. I open my blouse by 2 buttons then take his hand and let it slide in my open blouse just so that he can feel my growing nipple.
He looks at me knowing that we both want this. As I stroke him his trousers bulging now hmmmmmmm so hard.


I WROTE

As my hand moves along your inner thigh, I see you put your hand at the top of my leg... You start running your finger along my length. My member moves in response to your touch. I see your eyes widen when that happens! Then you start to circle my tip. The sensation is amazing. I can feel everything because my linen trousers are very thin and I am not wearing pants. And that means that my shape is very visible.I am totally amazed when you undo two buttons of your blouse and slip my hand inside. I caress your breasts and I can feel that both your nipples are hard. In fact I can see their shape pushing through the lacy material of your bra.Checking that nobody is looking, I move my fingers to the top of your inner thigh and I stroke up and down over the material of your knickers. I am really pleased to discover that the material is damp..... It's great to discover how much I have turned you on!I feel you stroking me again.I lean forward and whisper, "I want to be inside you". You smile and whisper, "I want it as well, but how can we?”I stand up, and take you by the hand. I say, "follow me"......


SHE WROTE

I am feeling so good right now. He has just been caressing my nipples a fact that I found highly erotic and I know he did. He was very surprised when I undid my buttons and placed his hand there.Think it pleased him to find them aroused.He has moved his hand on up my thigh just as I had wanted slow and precise till he’s at the top where he gently stokes the outside up and down touching the contours of my mound pushing the material which is already damp into the centre of my lips which is making it wetter.
He has a smile on his face which I take means he’s pleased that I am aroused by what is happening. I have started stroking him again he is so hard I can not only feel it, I can see it as well as it is straining against his trousers.He leans forward and whispers "I want to be in you". I look at him and smile. "I want it too" but it’s not possible "is it "????He looks at me and smiles, then he takes me by the hand saying "follow me".
I look at him thinking yes I want him too. We start our way back up the carriages looking for somewhere quiet.


I WROTE

Holding hands, we quickly walk out of the buffet. We want each other so urgently and we are desperate to find a private place.Quite soon we see the toilet. I say, "I know it's not perfect but our options are limited!” Without even replying, you open the door and pull me in behind you. Luckily, it is very clean and tidy. Immediately we hold each other and kiss passionately. Our hands start moving and it seems only a few moments later that your blouse is completely open! Your hard nipples are pushing through your lacy bra. I gently use my teeth to nibble them through the material. I hear you moan.... It seems you find that very erotic.I reach behind you to unzip your skirt and it falls away. Now you are just in your bra and knickers.... I really like what I see. I find your body highly attractive and your skin is so smooth. It must be obvious to you that I am almost bursting to get out of my trousers...........


SHE WROTE

He has taken me by the hand and is leading me up the carriages looking for that quiet place. We come to a toilet he says, "it’s not great but our options are limited".
I open the door and pull him inside. Thankfully it’s clean.

Once inside we start kissing our hands exploring each other. Before I know it my blouse is open and my nipples are poking through my lacy bra.
You notice this and proceed to suckle on them. I am finding this so erotic as I stand there that I'm doing a lot of moaning and groaning.
We go back to kissing and our tongues searching out each other’s mouths.

Your hands slide round my waist and undo my zipper my skirt falls to the floor. There I am standing before you in only my bra and knickers. I catch you giving me the once over. I can tell you’re happy with what you see.
I know you’re overcome with excitement as I can feel it pressing against me.

I step backwards and find the toilet seat behind me. I sit on the edge. I look up at him he knows what I want and hope he’s going to let me do ..............
With a knowing look I carry on letting my eyes fall to the matter in hand..... I take down his zipper and undo his button and oh my did I get a shock. Not only was he hard but he wasn’t wearing any underwear. He had gone commando mmmmmmmmmm.

After I get over my shock I let my hand stroke him. As I move forward to place it just to the edge of my mouth my tongue flicks out and I can taste the small drops of precum that emerged on his tip.
I let it slowly enter my mouth bit by bit.
I look up at him. His eyes are wide almost as if he didn’t expect me to do that mmmmmmmm. His swollen cock deep in my mouth as I wet it with my mouth my tongue running all around.

He thrusts forward pushing even deeper mmmmmmm.
His hands are in my hair as he thrusts deeper.
This is good as it’s been a while since I've had a cock so deep in my mouth.
I have my hands on his ass cheeks pulling him closer to me
I want him so deep ..........................


I WROTE

You see me looking at your body and I guess my eyes (as well as my erection) must have revealed how much I want you. When you sit on the edge of the toilet seat I think I know what you have in mind!

You undo the button and zip of my trousers... You gasp and look very surprised. Surely my cock is not that wonderful…. Then I realise that you were expecting to see my pants!

You move your face towards my cock and I leak a few drops of precum in anticipation. You lick the precum and then you take me into your mouth very slowly. It feels so good! I am watching your face to see if you are enjoying it, and I am watching my cock as it gently slides between your lips.

I thrust forward pushing further into your mouth and you groan with pleasure. I can feel your tongue playing over me, and sometimes you let your teeth scrape along my length – That is amazing!!!!

My hands are in your hair, and then I hold your shoulders, which makes you groan again. My hands move over your back and I quickly release the catch at the back of your bra. You swiftly remove the straps from your shoulders and let it fall to the floor. Your lovely breasts tumble free and I can see that your nipples are very hard. I cup your breasts in my hand and use my thumb and forefinger to tease and pull your pink nipples.

I pull my cock out of your mouth and I guide it to one of your breasts. I press the length against your smooth skin so that the wet tip touches your nipple. I move the tip over and around your nipple, spreading my precum and making it glisten.

I ask you to lift your legs so that I can pull off your knickers…………


SHE WROTE

His cock is plunging in and out of my mouth scrapping against my teeth going so deep that its hitting against the back of my throat almost making me gag.
I am enjoying this don’t want it to stop he has leaned over me to unhook my bra
My breasts falling from my bra. Nipples hard as he takes them between his finger and thumb squeezing pulling them even more making them tingle.
He takes his cock from my mouth I make a protest as I want it back …..
Ssssssshhhhhhhhhhhhhh he says as he takes the tip and places it against my swollen nipple spreading his precum on it mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
He then leans forward and takes it in his mouth sucking on my nipple
mmmmmmmmmmm I groan.
when he’s finished doing that he asks me to lift my legs so he can remove my knickers
I open my legs wide so he can see how wet they are.
Taking my finger I run it up and down my panties pushing them into my slit making them even wetter.
Then placing my fingers at his mouth I let him smell my sweet smell. He opens his mouth as I place them in for him to suck.
I slide my panties down over my knees then ankles stepping out of them as I do so I see him looking his eyes in growing wide when he notices that I am smooth shaven.
“Oh my “ he says.
His fingers trail from the breast he had been cupping down to between my legs, caressing my inner thighs.
His fingers searching and finding what they’ve been looking for mmmmmmmmmmm.


I WROTE

When I ask you to lift your legs so that I can remove your knickers, you open your legs really wide and it is obvious that your kickers are very wet. You run your fingers along your slit and the outline of your lips shows quite clearly. Then you offer your wet fingers up to my face. I can smell your juice and I eagerly suck your fingers. You taste so good and I want to taste even more!

As you slide down your panties, I am so pleased to see that you are shaven. Your pussy looks so soft and smooth. Your lips have parted slightly and they are shining with your wetness. I let my fingers run down your body from your breast, over your stomach, and over your mound. I run my fingers around your groin, very near your lips but not yet touching them. You open your legs even wider and thrust your pussy towards me, as I continue to tease you.

I rest two fingers along your lips, and gently move my fingers apart, opening your lips. You groan with delight, and I continue to open you so that I can see everything mmmmmmm.

I slip one finger inside you. You are soooooo wet. I can feel it, and I can hear your juices “clicking” as I explore deeper inside you with my finger.

At this point I kneel in front of you.
I put my head between your thighs.
I start to blow cool air along your inner thighs, gradually moving closer and closer to your wet pussy.
Eventually my mouth hovers above your wet lips.
I plant a long soft kiss between your open lips, and I start to lick.
Lick.
Lick.
Lick.
Lick.
Lick.
Lick.
Lick.
Your juice mixes with my saliva, and it doesn’t take long until your lips are soaking.
Sometimes I slip my tongue into your hole.
Sometimes I slide my finger in and out of you.
Sometimes I keep licking.
Lick.
Lick.
Lick.
Lick.
Lick.
Lick.
Lick.

I can see that your clit is waiting for my attention.
But it will have to wait a little longer.
I have an idea.
I wonder if you will like it.
I open my mouth and I cover as much of your pussy as I can.
I start to suck.
I suck harder.
And harder.
I suck until I feel your flesh pass between my lips into my mouth.
My tongue moves around and over your flesh inside my mouth, while I continue to suck you.
I am wondering if you like what I am doing to you…………


SHE WROTE

He kneels down in the cramped space and places himself in between my legs.
I can feel him blowing softly on my inner thighs and he is moving upwards to my wetness.
Thrusting my hips towards him I can feel his lips on me… a little kiss then another then I can feel his tongue dart in between my lips mmmmmmmmmmmmmm so hot.
He is licking me. It feels tremendous…. every now and then he licks up any drops he has missed.
He is licking me not missing an inch… my juices are flowing.... he has me soaked. I can feel it trickling.
He goes from licking me to inserting his finger deep in my wet pussy releasing my juices for him to taste and then back again.
By now I am overwhelmed by the experience and lie back groaning with enjoyment.

He has my inner lips wide I know he can see how swollen my clit it how it screams to be sucked.
But he doesn’t ………..
Instead I feel his mouth clamping around my pussy drawing it deep in his mouth.
Sucking me all in.
I can feel his tongue searching me.
The experience is amazing I feel as though im being sucked into him.
My clit is about to explode.
As the pressure builds up.
Wanting the release so much I grab his head and almost ram it deep in my aching pussy.
At this point I explode with the most massive orgasm I have ever had which I’m sure half the train must have heard.
I have cum so much…. this I know because I can hear him.
Its almost as if he’s drinking it from me my body shudders as my climax comes to an end.
Oh ………………………….. amazing!!


I WROTE

I am wondering if you like what I am doing to you…… I soon discover the answer when you moan loudly and grab my head, gripping it firmly against your soaking pussy!

I release your flesh from my mouth, and I see your clit standing proud. I sense you are close to climax so I lick your clit full on. You moan loudly again and your body starts to shudder. I continue licking, as I want you to cum. My mouth is soaking with the mixture of your juice and my saliva, but it seems that you are producing more and more juice mmmmmmmm.

Now I am sucking your clit and my teeth touch against it. I feel your body go rigid as your hands reach out for something to hold on to. I gently nibble your clit and in a split second you seem to explode. You shout so loudly that other people must have heard you! Your whole body shakes with pleasure and even more juice appears from your pussy. I suck and lick on your juices as I don’t want to lose even a single drop. You taste fantastic!

I allow you to calm a little after your orgasm, but I know we both want more.

Taking firm hold of your ass, I pull you forward so that your open and dripping pussy is in line with my cock. We look at each other knowing what will happen next. You smile and say “Fuck me now!”

I don’t need telling twice. Even though your lips are wide open, I use my fingers to open you even wider, and without further hesitation I plunge my rampant cock inside you. You are so wet that I slip deep inside you with ease.

You gasp!


SHE WROTE

After experiencing the most wonderful orgasm I have ever had I lie back satisfied. I look at him and I know he has enjoyed and we both want more.
He has moved my ass forward and my pussy which is dripping wet is in line with his cock which is leaking precum ……..mmmmmmmmmmm
I look at him I can wait no longer I want it and I want it now…………..
I tell him to fuck me …….
It seems that was all he was waiting for as he plunges his cock deep in my open pussy.
To feel him slide in all the way is beyond description.
He thrusts deeper if that is possible.
I can hear my juices squelching as he thrust faster and faster.
I slide a hand forward to my exposed clit, rubbing it.
He looks at me knowing I am near another climax.
The pressure is building it needs a release.
He moves forward to take a nipple in his mouth sucking on it.
I can’t hold on any longer my fingers dig into his back my head thrown back.
I let go.
The moment is so intense as my body shudders and shakes ……………….

Legs

I really love female legs. If a girl exposes some thigh then I am hooked. Here are two examples of women I have been to bed with who have lovely legs.

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The first is B from North Yorkshire. She is married and was nearly 60 when I met her but as you can see, her legs are fantastic. We spent a night together in a hotel a few years ago.














The second is H from the East coast. She sent me some photos when we were chatting on the internet and I just had to meet her. She is in a long term relationship and was in her late 50s when we met. When she got into my car her skirt rose about half way up her thighs. She knew her legs were an asset and I struggled to keep my eyes on the road. We spent an afternoon and a night together in a hotel.















Here are some more photos of H.

















Due to the distances invloved I never met either of them again.

L from Yorkshire

I only met L once, about 5 years ago. Her husband worked away from home during the week and she invited me to her house for most of the day while the children were at school.

She was of a larger build but everything was in proportion! After a lot of kissing we were soon naked on her bed. At one point she asked me to suck her. I placed my open mouth over the whole of her pussy and slowly started to suck. Gradually I could feel all her pussy flesh passing between my lips and into my mouth. She loved the sensation and told me that nobody had ever sucked her like that before.

We fucked in a variety of ways but she wanted to make me cum in her mouth. When I did cum, she held my cum in her mouth and kept a tight hold on my cock with her lips. Then ever so slowly, she allowed small amounts of my cum and her saliva to run down the sides of my cock. She kept this going for quite a few minutes. The view and the feeling was quite amazing!

M

On the basis that a picture is worth a thousand words, I'll let these photos tell the story.

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C from the South East

I first met C on the internet. She was married but separated from her husband. After a few telephone conversations, we agreed to meet.
I was staying in a hotel not far from her home. She arrived at the hotel by taxi. We had a drink in the bar and then took a table in the restaurant. Conversation flowed easily and we seemed to be attracted to each other. When we finished eating, our wine glasses were empty. I asked C if she would like another drink from the bar, or would she like some wine from the bottle in my room. Without hesitation, she chose my room.
When we entered my room, I uncorked the bottle of wine. C immediately lay on the bed. Her dress rode up her thighs revealing the top of her stockings and suspenders. I poured us both a glass and gently kissed her on the lips.
Soon her dress was off and we were both down to our underwear. The kissing was passionate but we still found time to drink the wine as well. Once her bra was off, I spilt a small amount of wine over one of her breasts and licked it off her breast and nipple. She pulled my cock out of my pants and gently took it in her mouth.
I decided to tease her, and so I put my cock back inside my pants. I pulled down her knickers revealing the lovely mound of red pubic hair shown in the photo. I kissed and licked her pussy lips, and placing my open mouth over her pussy lips, I gently but firmly sucked all her pussy flesh into my mouth. That got her so turned on that she ordered "fuck me now"! Who was I to argue?
My hard cock slid easily between her wet lips and deep into her pussy. She gripped my body tight between her thighs and we fucked long and hard. Then she squeezed my cock with her pussy muscles. I lost control and shot my hot cum inside her pussy.
We met a number of times. Sometimes in her house and sometimes at hotels. C said that I opened up her latent sexuality. We both had a lot of fun.

Me

Here are a few photos of me:

S from the East Midlands

I met S quite a number of times. She used to work in a hotel and I would stay there from time to time. Sometimes she would just come and join me in my room for a few hours. Sometimes she would spend the night with me. Whatever the arrangement, we always had some great sex.
She admitted that she had fucked many men before she met me, and I'm sure she has fucked plenty after me as well. However, she did say that I was the first man that had ever licked her out after cumming inside her pussy.
S always seemed very at ease when naked. Her nipples always responded to my touch and she loved it when I kissed, licked and nibbled them gently with my teeth.
I found her pussy also very responsive. Her pussy lips would start to open up in front of my eyes as I kissed and licked the top of her thighs and her stomach. As her flaps opened up, her wetness was usually visible. Quite quickly, her clit woould also make an appearance. Everything was just laid out for my delight and her pleasure.
We fucked in many different ways and she loved to feel me shooting my cum inside her. Usually I would make her cum first using my tongue and fingers, but sometimes I would make her cum by licking her out.
One day she said she would like to see me masturbate and cum in front of her. She finished up with cum on her tits, her face, her lips, and even in one eye!

D from North East England

D and I first chatted on the internet. She is about the same age as me, and trapped in an unhappy marriage. We chatted for a few weeks, exchanged mobile phone numbers, and were soon texting and talking. It wasn't long before we agreed to meet for sex.
She told me it was the first time she had been unfaithful. I believe her as she has recently told me about other men she met after me, and there is no reason for her to be untruthful.
We met early afternoon. As soon as she got out of her car I really fancied her. We kissed briefly, and made our way to my hotel room.
When we entered the room I could tell that she was nervous. She sat on the end of the bed and I put on the kettle and made us both some tea. We chatted for a while and drank the tea, and it wasn't long before we started kissing. Gradually the kissing became more passionate and our hands started moving over over each other. I kissed her neck and throat, and she seemed to melt. The time had come for some action!
Slowly, I unbuttoned her blouse, and kissed the new flesh revealed as a result. Her breathing got quicker as I kissed her breasts. Once the blouse was open, I kissed and nibbled her bra, directly over her nipples which were now quite hard. D undid my shirt and ran her hands over my chest. Soon her skirt was off, and so were my trousers. Just in our underwear, we lay on the bed and held each other tightly and kissed passionately. She moaned with pleasure as she felt my hardness rubbing against her groin.
I changed position so that I could kiss her ankles. I kissed her legs and slowly moved my mouth up her legs and onto her thigs. She eased her legs apart so that I could kiss her inner thighs, and I teased her by blowing cool air along the top of her thighs. Slowly but surely, my kisses moved nearer and nearer her knickers. D knew what she wanted and opened her legs wide for me. Eventually I planted a kiss on her knickers directly onto her pussy lips. Her knickers were wet with excitement!
I pulled off her knickers and you can see the wonderful view that I got. My mouth and tongue were soon exploring her pussy, and I used my fingers to part her lips so that my tongue could enter her hole, and lick between her sexy pussy lips. Now she was moaning and squealing with pleasure.
Next she removed my pants and my cock jumped out demanding her attention. She held my cock in one hand, and very very slowly ran the tips of fingers on her other hand along the length of my cock. Doing it so slowly meant it took a long time to travel the whole length, giving the impression of much length.
I lifted her legs onto my shoulders, and she guided my hard cock into her wet pussy. We fucked, gently at first, increasing the speed as our excitement increased. We kissed passionatley and I played with her nipples as the fucking got harder and deeper. D told me to cum inside her. Who was I to argue!
We did meet up for a second session, but difficluties with her family have meant that we have only met twice.

G in London

I have known G for many years. She is in her late 50s and is locked into a sexless marriage. We meet up from time to time for sexy fun. G and I arranged to spend a night together in a London hotel quite recently. We went out for a meal and a few drinks, and made our way back to the hotel room, having checked in quickly during the afternoon. When we got into the room, G went into the bathroom. A few minutes later she stepped back into the bedroom wearing a very short nightdress with tiny matching knickers. She looked fabulous! She must have seen me looking lustily at her, and she commented that I was rather overdressed. It didn't take me long to strip down to just my pants. We lay on the bed and cuddled. Soon we were kissing and we were both getting aroused as we both felt our bare skin touching. Our fingers started to touch. It was amazingly erotic, just feeling our fingertips touching and moving over each other's hands. Gradually our kissing became more passionate and our hands started wandering. G has very sensitive breasts so I gave her pleasure by touching, stroking and kissing her breasts.

Then she got on top of me and removed her nightdress. Her naked breasts were hanging just inches from my face while she rubbed her groin over my hard cock. We both were still wearing our pants and the feel of the material added to our pleasure. I quickly cupped her breasts in my hands and guided her now erect nipples towards my mouth. Soon she was squealing with pleasure as I licked, sucked and nibbled on each of her nipples. During this time, my hands were stroking the soft skin of her thighs.

Gradually my fingers started to explore inside her knickers. She was wet and warm! A few moments later, G slipped off her knickers, becoming totally naked. I slid down under her and planted a long, lingering kiss on her pussy lips. We rolled over so that we were lying side by side. We continued kissing passionately. My hands were stroking her stomach and inner thighs. Her hands were teasing my cock through my pants, and soon she decided to remove my pants. Now we were both naked.

I slipped one finger, and then a second finger, between her wet lips and into her pussy. I curled my fingers inside her, stroking against her G-spot. The impact was almost immediate. She started shouting out with pleasure and grabbed at my cock. Just as she neared her climax, I transferred my fingers to her clit as she pulled my cock inside her. The timing was brilliant. It wasn't long before we came, with me shooting my hot cum deep inside her.

SH in Southern England

When we got married, we lived in a first floor flat. A couple of similar age lived in the flat below. Being newly married, I had no thoughts of being unfaithful.

One night I was alone in the flat. I think my wife was staying with her parents for a few days. Durng the evening, the girl from downstairs knocked on my door and I let her in. Her name was S. She said she could hear someone on the other side of the fence that surrounded our flats. Her husband was out. She thought we might get a better view from my flat being one level higher.

We walked into the bedroom. It was already quite late and I had pulled the curtains. We walked along the side of the bed, and pulled back the curtains to get a better view. Nothing seemed to be going on so after a few minutes we let the curtains fall closed. The room was quite dark. She made no attempt to move away from me. For a few moments I hesitated. Was she waiting for me to make a move? On the other hand, she might tell my wife if I tried anything. I decided to walk away from her, and she left the flat.

A few years later, when we were all living in different places, we spent the weekend at their new place. By this time, both couples had a young child. We had all been out for the day and got back to their place early evening. The plan was to feed and bath the kids, put them to bed, and then the adults could eat and have a few drinks. Ready to have a shower, I had changed into a dressing gown with nothing underneath. S called us into the bathroom where the two kids were sharing the bath and clearly enjoying themselves. I stood next to S. My wife and S's husband stood on the other side of me. While we were talking and laughing, I looked at S and noticed that she was staring at my dressing gown. The way I was standing had allowed my gown to open in such a way that she could see what nobody else could see. It was clear to me that she was staring at my cock. Her eyes were open wide and she seemed to be enjoying the view!

There was never an opportunity for S and me to be alone. I often wonder what might have happened. Over the years we have drifted apart and we no longer meet.

The Start

I plan to use this blog to tell you about my many extra-marital sexual encounters. You are welcome to comment. While giving some details of the people and the encounters, I will never give enough information for anyone to be identified.

I have been married over 30 years. I love female company. I find the older I get, the more fun I have.